Rashid Bums Out

There's a lot of those things that I have been doing where I suddenly just stopped actually doing. Well generally, that's what's happening right now. But specifically, the Bum Blogs, which is entirely connected to those things that I'm talking about. When was the last time I posted on my other Bum Blogs? Would you imagine that the last time I written something on The Bum Earner was more like a month ago? And how about The Otaku Bum? Last post was dated on the 6th day of this month but is rather not counted since it's just a very short post where I technically rephrased in order for the blog to be updated. Maybe I was just felt like making things better which made me to suddenly stop.

Very soon I will be saying this for real, "I'm home!" Now thinking back, when was the last time that I went home? I can't even remember. I haven't been home for the longest time in my life! Now I'm counting like 3 to 4 years? Unlike other people, I really rarely go home. I dunno about it but maybe because it doesn't really feel like home anymore. I've always been away from the family since I went to college. Add to that all what happened back then. But then, even if it's hard for me to define what home is now, I'm still excited to see my mum and brother there. I'm also looking forward to visiting some places there as well. So what really made me go home? One of my closest friend is getting married and she asked me if I can be one of the MC's for her wedding! I really don't have any experience hosting a wedding before but I just can't say no to her, come on! It's her wedding day and I really wanted to be a part of that...

I bumped into this video of Victor Kim about #Kingdom Mentality and it did pushed me to write this down. I'm really thinking of it these days, "What did I really wanted when I was still a child?" Did I wished to become a doctor? a teacher? a sailor? I really don't remember it very clearly now. That's what they ask to little ones right? "What do you want to become when you grow up?" Why didn't I had the tightest grasp of it when I grew up? What did I really dreamed of? What do I really want? There should be some roots to what I really want to do right? But why can't I really figure it out? I've been so vacant for over the past year and I've been searching for that single purpose of my life. I don't want to be just a bum. I want this experience to be something meaningful. It's not that I am getting bored, but I want to do something more which is actually my problem. What is it that I wanted to do? I do enjoy my time while b...

Almost 2 weeks after my previous post, I guess it's time for me to stop hoping. Or should I still wait? Well anyways, if it is for me then it is mine, it's just that simple. I really turned out to be so hoping on my last post and I really never thought of the "what if's" of that certain situation. Knowing me, what goes around, comes around. I do my part and wait for what will happen after. But of course, waiting also has its end. At the end of the day, you need to think of your next step and do something about it. So time's up for this and let's move on.