Rashid Bums Out

was suppose to go home after breakfast.. but suddenly i felt the need to go online and have this posted.. really have a mix of thought and emotion right now.. both from what's happening right now and from the series that i've been watching lately.. say.. being asked if.. "is it ok..?" of course you'll say.. "yes..", "its ok..", "its just fine.." now.. what i'm trying to point in here out is the two sides behind these statements.. automatically one will say "ok" without even thinking twice.. but then you'll soon realize that.. "hey.. how come its permitted? if its possible for one.. why don't they let all go!?" if the talking can do it all.. why can't they make that happen?! we do all know what's to be considered.. they even sent the others even though they are to face the situation which they are telling us now.. its not being narrow minded or anything synonymous to that.. but if you are to thin...

what if you saw a notebook falling which look like this..? From RashidOnline Blog Pics would you still pick it up after knowing that this could actually kill..? i've been watching the series lately.. and its all about how justice is being laid on our hands.. if you do have the power to exterminate all those criminals by your own will.. would you do that for justcice's sake..? or you would still let the formal procedures do it..? yeah.. it will lessen criminal acts.. but will it be too much to judge someone's life..? well.. do watch it also.. Death Note.. hehe.. so what happened last weekend..? slept all saturday night.. and unexpectedly was invited by some friendly neighbor for a swim..:p it was actually my first time to jam with some of these people.. though it was only a dip.. it was really fun! hehe.. now we're planning to do it every weekends.. going to any resort or beach if possible..:D this would really be fun and a time to know my neighbors more.. hehe..:D got t...

i visited our house.. it was almost finished.. walls all cemented.. roof which are not nipas anymore.. though the expansion's not yet done.. somehow it can now be called a home.. lately.. whenever i go there to see the development.. i ended up thinking about things that i know i shoudn't be thinking of.. but.. almost everything that was used there came from me.. and that made me sacrifice my monthly wage.. i'm not suppose to be doing that.. but what else can i do.. i'm the only one left for the house to be constructed again.. what about my mum and dad..!? duhh.. they will only tell me that they are not capable of doing those stuff anymore.. the both of them are now dependent to their partners.. so what can we, the children expect.. love..? care..? support..? yeah.. i will never have any problems with my mum.. but as for our dad.. it's going to be another story.. soon we'll be moving back there.. there where memories were made to fade.. can't help but to reme...

well.. that really is sooo.. >>> for those who had watched the movie.. you'll know.. :D watched this in a dvd last Sunday.. (And its just now that i remembered this to post.. :p) well nweiz.. Have you ever felt being incomplete? i do.. many times that i've asked myself.. "What's been missing.?" but i can't hardly find an answer.. and this really is affecting the whole of me.. it's always been in my mind.. having this related on that movie.. Derby there.. a character played by Sam can't just find its match because of the missing piece in his life.. his family.. then now going back to me.. its somehow similar to what's happening to me right now.. or should i say.. happening to me these past months.. til now.. i've been with people.. whom i met thru random texting.. online groups.. common friends.. thinking that God will give me someone that will perfectly fit with me.. but then.. everything seemed to fail.. longest on the record was a mo...

just finished reading the comments on my previous post.. and i do admit.. i may had been so harsh on posting that.. hmm.. i didn't even went home last weekend.. and stayed for two days with my friend.. and about mum.. i think she knew why i've done that.. some rebel act.. nweiz.. thanks for the comments.. it somehow made my mind clear towards that.. and i'm trying to act as normal as i can be whenever i'm at home.. haay.. it would take time again.. now.. what i'm facing is.. my kind of job that i'm havin right now.. *sigh* after 2 weeks.. i don't know whom i will be with.. waah..... still can't tell more about the details.. just wanted to make it safe though.. waah.. i feel so blank again.. be back to edit tis later.. [EDIT] what else am i to add.. hmm.. weekend's been an "All Sleep" with Dad.. (Pheng..) nothing's new.. still doing the routines of my life.. haay.. such boring life i have don't i..? i'm thinking of changing the l...

i really don't know how to react on this.. my mom might be having another child.. i dunno if i'll be happy and excited.. or the other way around.. went home yesterday.. and there was mum at home.. we were talking, together with a cousin, about what happened to our neighbor who happened to had a new born child who only lasted for a day.. i really felt sad.. about what happened to the baby.. but later on.. mum told me that i shouldn't worry coz maybe by october.. there will come a new baby at home.. shocked.. really.. i hate to admit this but.. i don't want her to bear another child anymore.. we were four.. and now three.. and the youngest is almost on his way to college.. then now she's gonna tell me that she have to be going to an OB to have it be checked.. wth! of all what happened to us.. in our family.. i've always been in her side.. though i know that she did some mistakes too.. but then though were not staying together now.. i can't really get mad at he...

now at my 15 mins break.. we are still stucked up here at Legazpi.. never had we heard about the manila issue since they went off.. i don't know if i'm just the one puzzled about this matter.. but.. what's really going to happen next on us here..? hmm.. but coming to think about this all.. since we have still the job with us.. we don't have to worry.. all we have to do is to improve the quality of our job.. *sigh* but still that doesn't made me feel easy.. so.. air pressure in the corners..? now lowering.. we do tasks.. they do their's.. that's it.. problems about that? nothing.. if live taks comes our way.. do it in 3 days.. then go back to training.. that's what its like in here.. still have no definite plans and actions.. still on the way of making catalogs.. so.. what's with me right now these days?! nothing new.. same routine.. go to work.. eat breakfast.. go home.. sleep.. watch anime in the afternoon.. prepare.. thn eat dinner.. go to work aga...

part of me as an empath's still active.. i still am being tuned onto emotions.. though its from a far away distance.. proof? like what happened last tuesday early morning.. felt unseasy.. and thought of asking people if they're fine.. actually i have someone in mind that time.. them.. there i knew.. he's really not that fine.. which somehow affected me in some unexplainable reason.. nweiz.. something's really happening.. we now don't know if we're still be following to manila because of what's been happening in here.. some complicated things which are better not to be discussed here.. haay.. really not sure on how am i to act towards these all.. i do still want to think in a positive way but.. heck.. still.. its all up to what's gonna happen next..

I Juz want the days pass by.. and see what happens..

There is much to be learned from conflict and trial -- after all, high pressure makes diamonds, right? It might not please you to know that the next twenty-four hours may be a bit stressful, but after this day is over, you will be a better person. Not every day can be a breeze, and going through a rough patch will make you all the more appreciative when you encounter smooth sailing again -- and this will happen much sooner than you think. Capricorn horoscope for March 1 i was juz reading that.. then few minutes later.. our boss had us for a conference over YM regarding our perfomance at work.. i really don't know what to feel after that.. we've been given 1 week for improvements.. and they'll base it from there if we are to be brought to manila.. juz really wanted to cry at this point.. i dunno.. sort of two times the ouch.. i don't want to leave the company.. i juz don't want to.. well.. one might tell that its only because of one person.. but.. it will be so diffi...

firstly.. it's mum's burdey today!^^ haven't bought her a gift though yet..^^ it was last night.. when i saw this hanging on this jeepney that i rode in going here at the office.. From RashidOnline Blog Pics that happened to be my very last gift given to youngest brother, Reu.. that really made me remenisce those memories that i used to have with him.. well anyways.. currently listening to this song.. "Feels Like Home" Somethin' in your eyes, makes me wanna lose myself Makes me wanna lose myself, in your arms There's somethin' in your voice, makes my heart beat fast Hope this feeling lasts, the rest of my life If you knew how lonely my life has been And how long I've been so alone And if you knew how I wanted someone to come along And change my life the way you've done It feels like home to me, it feels like home to me It feels like I'm all the way back where I come from It feels like home to me, it feels like home to me It feels like I...