Rashid Bums Out

Spent my dy with DJ at Greenhills, went to church with his mom and sister, went to eat then walked around. And I'm officially in love with the whole place! Hahaha! Hmm, the picture above is a bit late already for me to post.. (I actually got that through google searching..XD) I think that was last December? But that picture is not really mine, so for whoever may be its owner.. Thanks! hehe! I just really have to borrow it..^^ I dunno but it's really fun walking and seeing all the people and stuff around! The place is just so interesting and amazing at the same time. Imagine all those stores of different items and product be all in just one place! Just so awesome, Right? So pinoy! haha! So I will be going back there and now, together with my sister. She asked me to accompany her to but some new clothes, and that's where I'm planning to take her. Haha! If you find Whispered interesting, why not subscribe to its Posts RSS ? Do it now! ^^

Like yeah, what the hell happened to me this past few months? Checking my previous posts based on the my archive.. err.. I only have 1 for February, 3 posts for March, and so far.. 2 for April.. Cool huh? I just got so lazy writing some blog posts.. and that's it. really! But i think it's time to be soooo back to blogging. I guess you can just really feel it when to be back right? so here's a short something to what happened to me couple of weeks ago. I already moved out from the apartment, and I'm now living here with my friends at Ozine.. though I think the word 'friends' is not actually the right term for it.. hmm.. let's say family. I think that's much better.. ^^ I think it's been 3 months already since I stayed here. Hmm, for all of you to know as well.. I'm currently jobless right now. I already resigned from my previous work last month and decided to do some freelance work while looking for a new job. I was supposed to be on my 4th year t...

i wanna blog of all the things that's happening to me but i can't think of any right now.. Errr.. must be the mood. LOL! Well anyways, (Gawd, I think someone's going to call my name again.. Geez! >. I'm staying in a new place as well. Going home to my apartment only when needed. needed means when I have to do the laundry or check my PC. I'm with my friends' place and this stay over started last week actually. Well it's fun. Really fun coz these are the people whom have stayed with me when there almost no one is on my side. One of the reason why I'm grateful of having them. I hope I could update this more often, and post some pics again some time soon..^^ If you find Whispered interesting, why not subscribe to its Posts RSS ? Do it now! ^^

All of a sudden, I felt sad. After work I got myself out of the office and went straight to Robinsons Galeria to have a date with myself. Yup, this afternoon was the only time for me to be alone so I just grabbed the chance and watched Avatar on 3D. From there, I was thinking of where to go next. I went on walking letting my feet to lead the way. Then I reached Starbucks at Edsa Central. Long walk isn't it? I didn't really noticed that much coz me and my mum and were actually texting from time to time. Then all of a sudden, I felt sad. Not for myself but for my mum. I think mums really know best. She was worried coz I'm alone. She just doesn't want me to be alone. I don't know why but there was even a time that she made me meet people in our neighborhood. Yun kasi yung time na lumipat kami at hindi talaga ako lumalabas ng bahay.. hehe! She's just so happy whenever I have friends around me. Maybe somehow she feels that I'm safe and secured that way. But what...

I'm here to know people. People who are not into the ACT. I'm not into short-term relationships. I would be happier if you'll approach me in a nice manner with something to talk about. Talks can be done online, tru phone or even over a cup of coffee. I'm starting to appreciate going out. I've always locked myself inside the house just sleeping or sometimes killing time online, surfing and playing some online games. But I learned that to grow also needs to be outside of that four-cornered bricks. It's when I started going out with friends, watching movies, be at the food courts, dining anywhere and be wherever. Maybe one of my biggest regrets for 2009 was to not being able to be on the beach for vacation. I didn't even got the chance to be on a vacation! There I learned that all work and rest at home is not really good if you really wanted a real life. I'm not really on a diet. I eat a lot. You might hear people telling me to lessen my cups of rice. I hea...

So this is gonna be the start of a new cycle of my life. I will be facing a lot starting today and everything ahead of me will surely be stepping up. Harder than it had been. I dunno but I can feel it. My life is starting to change. It's on its way now but I can't really see it. I've got no plans, no desires, nothing. I'm just living on the present. Not looking on the past, not wanting anything for the future. Maybe I just really learned how to be satisfied and be contented and is afraid of hoping and be disappointed. I've been learning a lot. From everything that I went through, from every places that I've been, from the people that I'm with. I'm happy for what I have now and I'm not going to ask for anything more for now. Yup and you read it right. Maybe it isn't just right for now for me to ask for something. Maybe it's just right for me to wait until the right time comes. I don't want to rush everything now. Aynways, I will be countin...

I wasn't been able to blog on the holidays because I was using somebody else's computer. And all I did was to plurk and play Luna Online. As planned, I spent the holidays with DJ and Bryan's family. And to describe the whole thing? It was really fun and I enjoyed a lot! The food was so delicious, the people are sooo cool, and everything was just so great! I met new people, really nice and so cool people. I never knew we could get all along that easy on the New Year's eve. At least the year started right, new year, new friends. ^^ Anyways, I just found this from.. Angel. It doesn't mean that 2009 ended without knowing the reason why. I met lots of people back then and there are some that up until now, I'm still wondering why fate made us met. I don't know but.. some things are not yet cleared and that's what I'm still going to find out..^^ If you find Whispered interesting, why not subscribe to its Posts RSS ? Do it now! ^^

And that's what I'm doing. Christmas, New Years and my birthdays had always been the hardest times for me. And this year's holidays was even harder than the usual hardest. My family's not going to be here on Christmas and New Year as well. So this is going to be my 2nd time spending the holidays without them. It's sad, I know. But compared to my first experience of spending it alone, this one's gonna be a bit easier for me now. So what's gonna be my plan? I don't know if I'm gonna be staying at home on the 24th, but I think I'll be with Ukiya and Krno while waiting for Santa. Though I'm not really so sure because I'm still being so shy with just the thought of spending it with their family. Loolz! What I'm going to think of next will be the New Year's eve. And that I remember. I always love watching fireworks display here in our neighborhood. I don't know if I'm gonna be able to watch it here or I will be in a different pl...

This Tumblr pic from Mina really caught my attention. And since this is the 100th post for this year, let's make it a topic! It's been a long time already that I happened to lose my missing pair. I guess, it would just be easy to replace it but what makes it difficult is to be looking for a pair that will match up pretty well. It's sad to be alone. Just looking at the photo will let you feel how it is to be one. But there's nothing we can do if God is not yet finished in writing the best love story for us. Looking for it is just an unexplainable thing. You'll try searching, get tired, give it all to fate, then you'll gonna feel something, then you'll try to follow that feeling, making things right, hoping that things would get well but in the end, you're still not sure if it's the one. Let's see, I hope this is not going to be misinterpreted by some. Me being single doesn't mean that I'm still hooked with someone in my past. Just to spell...

    How I just wished that these scars were made from that blade, but unfortunately, I just got them from doing the laundry. I walked home from work, and had lots of "suicidal" thoughts ran through my mind, non-stop. Wishing that a car would hit me, someone would stab me, an accident would drive into me and everything alike. I just wanted fate to end up my life. This may sound crazy knowing that the person you knew of me has this kind of thinking inside my mind. My real friends might kill me as soon as they read this, I would love to. They see me as someone who can stand up straight and fix every mess that comes, but what they don't know is, I'm just always letting fate decide of what's gonna happen next. Walking alone made me clear things about myself, I'm reckless and hopeless. I'm not of any help to my family lately, I'm not a good friend anymore, having no growth as an employee as well. Maybe my dad is right to call me "inutil" , well at...

Day 2 of the week and I'm just getting more depressed. Walked halfway home again after work. Things really can't get away my head that easy. Still, our office is the most loneliest place on Earth for me. So just to recover from being deep-soaked in sadness, indulgence is a must! That's what I had after having dinner, I'm getting used to having cake with tea now. What I had a while ago was Kohee's Black Forest Cake and Cinnamon Apple flavored Stash tea. I really didn't care about how much I'm gonna pay, I'm more concerned about myself being drowned again from those tears that I shed late this afternoon at work. I was hurt and even though I don't clearly understand it, it really made me emotionally unstable. I know people are concerned but are you now telling me that we're in totally different levels right now, reason for us to break up like this? So am I to conclude now that what's really happening right now is the kind of treatment that...

I received a call early this evening from a firm who found my profile on a certain job hunting site. She introduced to me their company, interviewed me and explained to me the position that she thinks will fit for me. I had her questions answered and she told me that she'll be back to call me again in a few. After a little while she called and told me that I did not qualified for the position that she offered me earlier. This just really left me disheartened. What just happened made me realize some things. I'm not really blind about it but reaching this point where in skills are being looked upon, my mind is starting to wonder and ask, "Is there growth for me here?" After work, I walked for a while, contemplating on what just happened. The skills that I have now doesn't even matched the one they're looking for. They're actually looking for someone who can do things manually, can compute finances with understanding, that's why they need it to be done ma...

I'm beginning to believe that, I'm loosing friends because I'm becoming so bad.. It's like, what I've become was the worst for some people. And now I'm wondering, is this still the real me? Or maybe, it's really hard for them to accept the kind of me that I've become. Last week I watched Kimi ni Todoke's 4th episode, Rumors. This just really got me that I have to blog it out. Misunderstanding became its theme, And Sawako's character gave me a view from a different perspective. I don't know if I can still be called as their friend. How long has it been? 2 months? almost 3 months? I'm already less of a friend to them and is just a mere someone who's scared to make new friends again. "You change for 2 reasons: Either you learn enough that you want to, or you've been hurt enough that you have to" I would rather go for the latter. I didn't intend to disappoint those people around me of who I have become but what appears ...

I'm starting to learn how to live life without worrying much. I don't want myself to suffer again about things that will not really help me grow up. It's still always better to cling on happiness rather than drowning yourself in sadness. When Ondoy hits our country, Ozine made a step of helping the affected people through voluntary works and by gathering donations. The happiness that I felt on helping those typhoon victims is immeasurable. It's a different feeling, a different kind of happiness that one can feel. Plus the fact that the people who you are with are also your friends that are also willing to help. The feeling of happiness that time is just.. overflowing. I'll be facing a new kind of life soon. Still unsure of what will this lead me but as long as I'm happy.. I know this will not fail me. I'm starting to do things that I am enjoying. And I think I will be enjoying this more when that time comes. Kinda excited, yes. Because finally I got to learn...

I want to see it clearly.. Things that I really want.. Or even those things that I didn't knew that I wanted.. It's just that.. lately.. I've been wanting a lot of things now.. And we all know what's WANT and NEED right? Well here it goes.. What surprised me were these two things that suddenly popped out on my mind when I was at the bus going home. "I want to own a car, and to have a billboard of me over there.." Can you just imagine that?! I mean.. that will always remain as a dream right?! I mean the billboard thing! C'mon! Reality.. hello! hahaha! Just to remind myself.. never did I wanted to own a car before and even to have a billboard of me hanging anywhere! So those were just 2 of my most surprising thoughts I had lately. For the "MORE REALISTIC" ones.. I think, I'll be making a confession here. I've been idolizing "some" people lately. I've learned that these cool guys are really those whom I want to look up to. By...

Just finished watching the final episode of 07-Ghost's season 1 a while ago and thought of doing something like this. This just really became one of my favorites so far. It's mostly about how strong your will is when it comes to standing by those people you cared the most. About how to to know what's just about something that you want to believe in. About the truth that has many forms as there are people. Now, just how will you be giving meaning on this 3 pics posted above? Reading (the subtitles) only just that would really make you think. Well, it just depends on how you interpret it though. It's all about growing up, being not just that stupid brat but to who you had become. I dunno, but as what people say, when you lose something, you'll gain something better. And maybe, I think I'll just have to believe in that. Though I still really don't see what that gain is.. I'll just think positive about that. For those who are watching this series.. "Sea...

What's the biggest shot? The Office. I finally named it my "Loneliest place on Earth" and hell yeah, so true! I now only go to the office for plain work and to super patiently wait for the clock to hit 4PM or until all my tasks are done, then go. Looks so boring right? Nice it may seem if I'm pretty much busy, so this made me somehow loved Tuesdays, Wednesdays and even Saturdays, since these days are the busiest days of my week, but hell to Thursdays and Fridays! These are just the damn wicked days which really kills me to death! Days that at most of the time, I'm doing nothing! So the pain is there, the sadness is there, sometimes, even tears are there.. just say, c'mon! what else could you ask for! I'm lonely and so much broke! I'm not really hiding it. You may see me smile at times, laugh at times, but that doesn't mean that I'm fine. I'm even thinking of leaving.. again. A thought that was already been with me months back. And its comin...

Sharing something that someone shared me.. I know this is something that you may hear on some churches.. but I don't mind.. It's nice eh.. try listening to it.. you'll know..^^ FM Static Dear God Dear God I wrote this letter, To put my thoughts on paper, Sometimes life seems like a criminal, Without a well planned caper I know Youre the answer, But I forget the question, How do I know You love me, When no one else, seems to care Ive tried everything I thought, Might help me understand things, And it didnt tell me anything, Or even play my heart strings So Im writing You this letter, To wait for Your reply, I am so tired, of not believing, Ill give You a try I dont know, but I got this feeling, That todays gonna be my turning point, Everyday I get a little bit closer, It feels so good to finally be over I dont know, but I think Im learning, This type of thing, Never been my calling card, Sometimes you just gotta look closer, Instead of searchin so hard So when I start to get...

Just for share.. kinda relates to the current "what's going on with me" now.. Enjoy the music coz I enjoyed it a lot! ^^ David Choi I Can Get Used To This I kept all of my feelings locked inside of me, Finally found someone to trust with everything, Oh I try so hard always to be a man, But right now I just, I can't understand how I can't control. Oh, I think love's got a hold on me. [Chorus: ] Such a foreign feeling, but you know... I can get used to this, I can get used to this, I can get used to this now. Comfortable and feels so real, I can get used to this, Stuck in this happiness. I can get used to this now, Yeah... [Verse 2:] I think this is the first time I've ever felt like this And found someone I would never want to miss. I feel like a child, I get butterflies, Sorry this is the only way to describe. Think I'll let it go, Let this love get a hold of me [Chorus:] Such a foreign feeling, but you know... I can get used to this, I can get used to...

I'm halfway there.. Maybe I'm right.. Maybe I'm wrong.. Emotions can really get through you.. It can either make you strong.. or weak.. and even weaker.. People say.. I'm so sensitive.. At times, even over sensitive.. I learned.. That it isn't just a trait.. It is actually me.. Now I'm trying.. Learning on how to control it.. To make it easy as just to turning it ON or OFF.. I know.. Being one can make.. But being one can also break.. Things might be so complicated.. That's why I want to understand it.. Even if it needs me to go branch by branch.. I've always been me.. Might be wearing masks at times.. But it just breaks easily.. If I'm mad, I'm mad.. If I'm sad, I'm sad.. What you see is what you get.. I don't have to create a face.. Different to what I truly feel.. In front of those who knows me well.. But maybe there are still a lot.. A lot to know.. A lot to learn.. Anyways, I'm almost there.. I may meet anyone.. They might me...