Rashid Bums Out

I'm hurting and I don't know when will this feeling is going to leave me. I know that its been a long time when my string got detached, and I thought I was fine, just fine, and will always be fine. I thought it isn't gonna be like the almost 3 months experience that I had where in all I ever wanted was to be gone in an instant or to be buried deep down the depths of the ocean. But suddenly, everything that I thought about became all so wrong. What I feel right now is 3 times the experience that I was in before. I thought, I was the one who gave way to just make things easier to not complicate things. If only I was not just so in love, that made me so much stupid, I should have realized it even before everything happened. It shouldn't have to reach 3 times of asking to untie the string and let it be like what it used to be. Now, I'm seeing myself as someone who is really so tanga over that foolish thing called love. Asking it not to break it up was just so stupid to...

As soon as I order my new hosting plan on Philhosting, expect me to be idle, but not dead, for the moment. Philhosting had made some major changes of their architectural structure which may help a lot of its client, me included of course, in giving us a better service. Something that we really deserve from them. I'm happy for this change and I hope this will turn out better. And because of this, we, the existing clients, were asked to migrate our domain to their new server to fully experience the new change that they made. So as soon as I get a hand of a 330 pesos, which is going to be my yearly payment, on my pocket and pay for my new hosting plan.. the migration of my domain will commence. This is also a good timing for my blog because hopefully, I can now give my dear whispered a new face, and a whole new identity. Something that I'm really looking up to. This, now, is for real. I already had finished the pages that I'll be using in here, and all that I'm waiting is ...

Sunday means being at home to me. I always got nowhere to go to so I'm really stuck here every sundays. Is my blog half dead? Are there still any visitors? I think its been because of me.. I got really busy these passed days which made me hit bed early after coming home from work. I must admit, work's kinda giving me the pressure.. and yes, I'm being pressured. But I can't blame them.. as the line goes, "With great power comes great responsibility" Maybe I'm just to good at what I'm doing at work which really made me feel this way. I'm still being humble, okay? Heheheh.. Just so I'm lucky now.. that somehow, my hard work paid off.. Sooner, its gonna bear fruit. ---------- Would you believe that I'm now an official Homebased Freelance Writer? Yeah.. my application was approved yesterday. I really don't expect this now because, its been months that I submitted the application. I didn't expect that my application was still undergoing ...

Yep, i've been really busy these passed 5 days! Hope I can have a break from work.. whew!

So what's with me this very early morning after the St. Valentine's Day? Prepare for a lot of randomness! Got really busy at work, it mae me go home by 5PM. I've got myself a haircut! I think I'm getting addicted to tuna sandwich.. Date? Nah.. I'm single, I'm 7 months single. Dale shared to me a song which I really liked! "For You" by Kenny Lattimore. Lovely song! Would you believe this, Backstreet Boys' "Show Me The Meaning of Being Lonely" on a Valentine's Day? I just finihe watching "A Very Special Love" by Sarah Geronimo an John Lloyd Cruz. I'm alone on my room, my roommate went to Bicol for their church anniversary. Do I have to sleep now?

Already have plans? ako..? wala akong date eh.. kayo ba?

Hell week's over and we're living normal days once again. But being under in a huge supervision doesn't end there yet. We were left with tons of tasks which needs to be done ASAP! I even have a 2 week deadline for a certain documentation, plus the validation that I'm also been tasked to do. Whew! Anyways, A lot happened on my past 5 days of not posting. Here are some random thoughts. I was again declined on my HSBC credit card application! (Not again! T_T) I'm enjoying my time playing zoids, thinking on how I can be the best Zoid Warrior! Rawr! I'm halfway done with my project which is expected to be up 23 days from now or earlier. I felt bad when my mum left for Bicol. I felt like to be the worst son living on earth. T_T I was also declined on my application for a personal loan in ChinaTrust. (I dunno why..T_T) I need Php 35k to fully restore our house What else.. hmmm.. I haven't seen the prelumbar lunar eclipse last night. Too bad. My phone got some came...

Though this week's not yet through, I'm seeing this as one of those so-called hell week. We're like in a military school whenever we're at the office. Its like there's always an eye seeing right through you looking at everything you do. From the move of your head, from the time you stand up, from the time you do work and everything. You can even say that we're like living at Kuya's PBB House because of that. Well, there were are surveillance cameras installed but there's actually more than that. *sigh* Then my mom is here again and I don't know why. I mean, I know it will help if she'll stay here to have some rest but I think its better if she'll be staying with my two other siblings who most needs her than I do. Anyways, we were supposed to go play badminton yesterday. But because of the kind of internet connection that we had, we were asked to stay until we finish the task. Then there goes our time to play. But you know what happened? We w...

Its Monday evening again and its already time for me to rest. I've been here earlier, ready to post. But I found my blog to be down again. Plus the fact that Philhosting is on its way making some change. I hope its for the better-ER. I got something that I've been doing yesterday. Maybe in two weeks time I can be able to finish it. I just can do it on a weekday. My mind's already loaded with stuff from work, so I'll just refresh my mind by playing Zoids Legacy. :D Yep! I'm playing Zoids again for the second time. I learned how to use Visual Boy Advance in Linux, so there. Enjoy enjoy! :D

At long last! I've been able to clean up all of my previous posts. From removing the "//" on each of the beginning of my previous post titles and by labeling them accordingly. I almost spent 2 hours for doing all of those editing and stuff! O.O And that really was so boring but I really have to do it just to make things organized. I'll just have to take a bath after this then I'll hit something up in here. I have another project running, waiting to be finished. I hope I can somehow get a grab on this one. xD