Rashid Bums Out

This entry happened to be posted so early. I'm supposed to be posting something different from this Untold Stories segment since I just previously posted a very serious one but then I guess it can't be helped now that I'm in the mood of revealing another one right now. So let me just first say this: If only I could ease the pain. But then I said to myself, it is your battle and the only thing left for me to do is to believe that you can somehow get out of it alive and ready to face life again. I am actually ready to click the Post button on Facebook when my browser stopped responding. So I thought, it could be more better if I'll just turn it into a blog post and here I am now. The truth is, someone very dear to me is on a process of moving on from a failed relationship. I really don't want to be so blunt about that fact since he's still healing but if ever you come across this post, I just thought that this is actually the best way to describe it. Most of...

Update: I just want you to know that after giving it some time, I learned that I am only exerting a lot of unnecessary efforts on thinking about things that I am not supposed to be worrying about. So what you will read about the cold shoulders and stuff, that was only an presumption made by an presumptionisto. But don't worry, I can still let you read on. Alright, I badly needed to put this into words. I don't really know if I am just over reacting or what I'm dealing right now is a couple of cold shoulders. I know, I shouldn't be dealing with this kind of things knowing that I am only here living inside this room for over a year now and the only people I always see are the ones I'm living with. Maybe I'm just really being the assuming one thinking that there is really going on but I really can't help but think that it has something to do with me. Yes, I've been unemployed for like almost 2 years already and all I do is receive my sister...

Both my head and my nape hurts when I woke up this afternoon. Is it caused by me sleeping too much or, alright, I've been eating ' tuyo ' since yesterday and that's one of those salty foods that I'm supposed to avoid to prevent myself from having this high blood pressure. ' Eh kaso anong magagawa ko, masarap kaya kumain ng tuyo. ' LOL! But at least now I'm fine and I just hope that it'll not wake me up having to complain about the same pain again tomorrow. Job hunt update: I went to ADP in Ayala yesterday to attend to my supposed to be interview. I arrived there at around 11, filled up a form then waited for almost 3 hours before I got called. It was like waiting for forever while we were watching the video which was playing in loops! Imagine a single video which runs for like a minute with just 4 different interview-like episodes playing for the whole 3 hours that I was waiting. I almost memorized already what they were saying. I'm not irri...

Alright, I'll try to make this as short as possible. I just want to set the mood for myself to start writing for the articles that I'm supposed to finish. I watched Fairy Tail episode 108 a while ago and that is where I got the title of today's blog title. And then I remembered one of the interviews done by YTF where I learned about why the named their group YTF - Yesterday, Today and Forever. You can watch the interview below. " Yesterday is in the past, today you have a choice and forever is up to you. " And most likely, every choice you make today has a great impact to what your future holds. And when I say every choice, that is each and every choice you make, big or small, yes or no, do this or do that. Then I remember the anime Steins;Gate which made a different approach on how your choices can affect the future where every choice you should have made will create a world parallel to ours and from there branches of possibilities about your futur...

Done watching Hoshi wo Ou Kodomo~ timing talaga lagi panonood ko~ Umaakma lagi sa mood~ Happy Birthday uli Reu~ Siguro nga I'll just have to believe that all people pass on some time. That the only difference is whether it comes sooner or later. We've been together for 8 years and you really went ahead pretty soon. But I guess I'll just have to accept that you're a part of a much bigger plan now. Wherever you are right now, I know you're fine and happy. Just always keep a close watch over us ha? You just turned 17 and I just wish that I can spend this day with you and spend this life with you a bit longer. You're big brother is really missing you so much and I will always be. I Love you. ~♥ This was what I posted on Facebook after watching Hoshi wo Ou Kodomo, an anime movie which is about parting with your loved ones and seeing the cruelty and beauty of life. Today is actually my little brother's birthday. Well he just turned 17 which probably makes him...

I added some color into my blog just to get away from the so plain white template that I had. And congrats to me for putting up a link page up there! I really had a hard time putting that up though. I don't know if it's a Blogger issue but at least I managed to bring it back. I really am not a social blogger or maybe because I wasn't really wandering around but anyways I also added Belleh and Aencille on my list, I think I remember having them on my list of links before but I really can't recall it very clearly. Guess, I'll just have to make a drop by to their blogs later. ^^ This link exchange thing is really one of the most remembered part of my early blogging experience. Haha! So my mom is still here and maybe they will be going back home to Bicol tomorrow. Well at least I can be able to concentrate on writing and going back to applying for a job again. It was really like I was evicted out from using my PC when they arrived, my mom, together with my cuz....

Juggling my time between sleeping, eating, watching anime, attending a couple of interviews and writing reviews for the magazine is somewhat a challenge for me these days. I can't even tell if I'm managing it properly or I'm just slacking off most of the time.This might be hard to believe but I think I'm stressed out of what is happening right now. I had this interview yesterday where I was asked of what I really wanted to do. For a second there I thought I knew but as we moved on, I learned that it would really be impossible to do everything. That going with the flow will never bring you to where you really want to go. It was actually for a CSR/TSR position which I am not really good at, well, they say that I can be trained since I really don't have any experience in regards to that but one thing became clear and thanks to that interview. I guess it did went on naturally, I wanted to try a new path through this position that I thought I can lead to but maybe i...

I guess I'll just have to pick some random picture to be posted on each blog post in line with the dynamic views implemented by Blogger. This one caught my eye and it's the hug that really made me feel this image, plus of course the amazingly done background. I've seen this on Tumblr and thanks for posting this up. Now, I badly need one. Globe effed up again and made me unconnected for almost 3 days. It's not that I'm really using their "service" but still I need it to connect to the internet. Funny part is, I forgot that I have a spare Smart stick lying just in front of me which I can use to reconnect me to the world. If not for my mom who called me asking if I'm still using it, I shouldn't be here typing and thinking of putting up a blog post right now. Ewoishe is back! Yey! And it's just a while ago when I got to see a feature story about her and her blogging experience which can be found here:  Who’s Who: IT Student and 7 Years Blog...

I'm not quite sure of how many letters I have used already but this one's I know to be of a major plan after having a failure on my previous plan. So, I was on my Facebook profile, editing the About Me section when I suddenly realized that this About Me section is supposed to be updated from time to time, that is if you're seriously writing the real about you. I happened to start writing and this is what I've made up: I'm a Long-time Writer and Blogger, Ozine Event Staff and Coordinator and for 2 years, I've become a Funemployed Bum! Social Media Marketer, Entrepreneur and a Part-time Job Hunter. Now I'm 25 and I'm almost turning 26, I decided to redo my life and I'm preparing myself mentally and emotionally to be ready to face the corporate world once again. I dunno if this is going to be the most clever thing to do but I know that I can make my own formula on how to deal with life this time around. And it's all thanks to my mom that I n...

I'm going back to Batangas early next year! And this time, I'm going to be at Residencia De Riego and Resort! I will be with 15 other people from one of my FB group, Party Pipoys! It's actually a deal that we got from Cash Cash Pinoy, a 16 pax deal for only Php3,999 which is about half of the original value. You can check the place tru the photos below. Here's the original text from Cash Cash Pinoy: Highlights When it's about lively past, history, folklore, nature and stretches of excellent beaches and relax, it's about Batangas! Choose among 4 exclusive pack at incredible price. A Unique Filipino design based on the classic Nipa Hut - from cottages to the rooms and bar! Inclusive of use of swimming pool, reserved cottages, breakfast and entrance for everyone! FREE use of facilities like Basketball half court, Volleyball court, Darts, Billiard hall, Badminton, Table tennis and Karaoke machine! 3 magnificent swimming pools to frolic in : 2 for...

Welcome to the newly updated template of my humble blog, now using Blogger's Dynamic Views which I really starting to love. So, last blogging activity, September 25. What the hell happened to me in the past month? And why haven't I been able to blog about even a single word? A lot of things happened but most of the time I was thinking. I did tell you that I was coming back home on my previous post. And know what, I did. I spent a week back home and realized a bunch of things which I should have thought of way back. The reason why I haven't even thought of coming back before is because of I was filled with the idea of when I come to visit home, I should be able to bring with me a huge sum of money in my pocket along with me, if not huge, at least a justifiable amount. I was too scared to go home bringing only myself. But I was wrong. Just seeing my mom and my dad really gave me the feeling that everything's fine. That I am still warmly welcome and that there's n...

There's a lot of those things that I have been doing where I suddenly just stopped actually doing. Well generally, that's what's happening right now. But specifically, the Bum Blogs, which is entirely connected to those things that I'm talking about. When was the last time I posted on my other Bum Blogs? Would you imagine that the last time I written something on The Bum Earner was more like a month ago? And how about The Otaku Bum? Last post was dated on the 6th day of this month but is rather not counted since it's just a very short post where I technically rephrased in order for the blog to be updated. Maybe I was just felt like making things better which made me to suddenly stop.

Very soon I will be saying this for real, "I'm home!" Now thinking back, when was the last time that I went home? I can't even remember. I haven't been home for the longest time in my life! Now I'm counting like 3 to 4 years? Unlike other people, I really rarely go home. I dunno about it but maybe because it doesn't really feel like home anymore. I've always been away from the family since I went to college. Add to that all what happened back then. But then, even if it's hard for me to define what home is now, I'm still excited to see my mum and brother there. I'm also looking forward to visiting some places there as well. So what really made me go home? One of my closest friend is getting married and she asked me if I can be one of the MC's for her wedding! I really don't have any experience hosting a wedding before but I just can't say no to her, come on! It's her wedding day and I really wanted to be a part of that...

I bumped into this video of Victor Kim about #Kingdom Mentality and it did pushed me to write this down. I'm really thinking of it these days, "What did I really wanted when I was still a child?" Did I wished to become a doctor? a teacher? a sailor? I really don't remember it very clearly now. That's what they ask to little ones right? "What do you want to become when you grow up?" Why didn't I had the tightest grasp of it when I grew up? What did I really dreamed of? What do I really want? There should be some roots to what I really want to do right? But why can't I really figure it out? I've been so vacant for over the past year and I've been searching for that single purpose of my life. I don't want to be just a bum. I want this experience to be something meaningful. It's not that I am getting bored, but I want to do something more which is actually my problem. What is it that I wanted to do? I do enjoy my time while b...

Almost 2 weeks after my previous post, I guess it's time for me to stop hoping. Or should I still wait? Well anyways, if it is for me then it is mine, it's just that simple. I really turned out to be so hoping on my last post and I really never thought of the "what if's" of that certain situation. Knowing me, what goes around, comes around. I do my part and wait for what will happen after. But of course, waiting also has its end. At the end of the day, you need to think of your next step and do something about it. So time's up for this and let's move on.

I was searching all over the web for something that can describe what my reaction was when I opened my Facebook early last night. What happened that time might be something that I can connect to this certain thought that I was wishing. Something that all of the sudden appeared to me to give a cleared path. I'm not really going to give away the details for now but this I think is what I needed to somehow make a move for myself. I hope this can open a new chapter of my book and then let's see what will happen from there. I will surely share this in full details soon.

Lately, what I am feeling is frustration, depression, disappointment, stress, what else? I already told you about what happened to one of my bum blogs, The Otaku Bum. Actually I was able to publish its latest post about the issue that I am experiencing and since I was able to, I hurriedly tried to post another one which is an Anime post and there it goes again, publishing issues. This is just so frustrating. I already searched for some possible fix but all I can see on Blogger discussions are a whole bunch of questions hanging unanswered. The same thing is what I also get in regards with the internet connection that I am using right now. Unlike the previous one, this service doesn't really have a place to post your inquiries and complains. All they have is a Symbianize thread where all I could only see are questions as well. Just where are the people who knows the answers?! But somehow, what's good for now is that my internet connection is a bit stable compared than the last ...

I don't know what is really happening, but every time I publish a post on my other bum blog, The Otaku Blog , it just don't go through. I checked Blogger's status blog and learned that they already fixed the problem but hey, why can't I publish my posts there?! I am thinking if it has something to do with uploading an image. I was able to publish Fall 2012: Maken-Ki! Trailer having no problem at all just a while ago since I only embedded a video with it. Now if this post gets published, then tell me what really is happening. Is it only a problem on my other bum blog or is it a problem that Blogger needs to fix?

For the first time, I owned the stage! Yup! At the just recent Ozine event at SM City Rosales, I happened to grab a chance of hosting it. I didn't even imagine that it will really make me oh so nervous that day! Haha! We went there thinking that I will be fine but it wasn't really that easy to make a fine composure on stage! LOL! I can still even remember my voice trembling and my hand shaking. At least I managed to do it better when I get to talk to some of the people who were there. I just happened to get some strength from them to enjoy the whole event rather than thinking of how I will end up doing the hosting.

This may be a little late but well, you might still be interested on the itinerary that we had when we went to Batangas for a weekend getaway! I know that you first want to know the amount that we shelled out for this getaway. Would you believe that we only spent more or less P1,500 only for this weekend trip? So this is what really happened last weekend. Pictures from my Facebook were made into slide shows for you to get a glimpse of what it is like.

Alright, So we left for Batangas last Saturday afternoon, spend the whole weekend there until Sunday, went to Caleruega after leaving Chateau Royale and headed to Carlos Pizza on Magallanes Square at Tagaytay to grab lots of foods! That's what happened last weekend. And for the details, I'll be posting them up on my next post because until now, I think I'm still on vacation and my mind's not yet still on the course of taking so much actions. But would you believe that we only spent around P1,500 each for this whole weekend getaway? That I will tell you, really, on my next post! Hahaha!

It's nice waking up to a very nice weather and I hope this continues for the rest of the week! Weekend is almost there and I'm really looking forward to spend it with some friends. If you haven't known about this great deal that we found you must check it now to experience a Batangas Getaway for 4, P1,999 Only! It'll be on until February 29, 2012 So book your reservations now!

Let's talk about being hot! Being a Nuffnang blogger is the hottest thing since my pen gave up. Don't deny it, we were so into pen and paper way back and it has been the only means for us writers to earn. It has always been our best friend whenever an idea pops into our mind making sure that everything will be written exactly as how it occurred in our mind. Well we did relied on Mr. Typewriter for a better presentation but still our pens were the most powerful. It was the hottest thing back then, not until we were able to tap our fingers in top of our keyboards. What our pens can do, can also be done by our computer. So there's really no other choice for my pen but to give up. I can even live a day without holding a pen in my hand now! Then right after, blogging came out to be the newest way for people like us to earn. Then suddenly Nuffnang came to visit the Philippines! This happened to be the hottest thing not just in town but in the whole country up until now! Everyb...

Well, it's not really my birthday today. It just so happened that I was preparing this Sekai-ichi Hatsukoi Season 2 post for my Anime blog, The Otaku Bum . I was browsing some episodes from the first season until I get to watch this certain episode which made me remember something about birthdays. Don't worry, this isn't going to feel like a post of those times. Just that I remember this moment where I'm really looking forward to celebrating his birthday but in the end he went home and spent it with his family. Well anyways, let's just leave it behind. So I told myself that my next year's birthday will be different. Let's see what I can produce in 5 months time then. Celebrating this year's birthday really brought me lots of hope, let's see where it will bring me from here on.

Synopsis: Ang Sayaw ng Dalawang Kaliwang Paa explores the intersection and divergence between feminist and gay concerns in the third world context, as it features the poetry of Merlinda Bobis, Ruth Elynia Mabanglo, Joi Barrios, Rebecca Anonuevo, Benilda Santos and Ophelia Dimalanta. When Marlon, a college student, stalks Karen, his literature professor, he finds out that she moonlights as a choreographer and dance teacher in a dance studio. Frustrated over his performance in her literature class, he plans to impress her instead by learning to poeticize his body movements and enroll in her dance class. He hires his classmate to teach him the basics of dancing. As Dennis, his tutor, teaches him how his body should move, Marlon begins to understand the intersections between the art of poetry and dance. This opens up his world to new insights about the life of Karen as a single woman who chose to live the life of an artist in a third world setting. Marlon begins to understand how t...

Chateau Royale Sports & Country Club is giving us the best getaway for 53% off on their 2 Days and 1 Night stay in Batangas! That's P2,201 savings for us! If you've got friends who will be interested on this exciting promo, book your reservations now! It will last from August 1, 2011 to February 29, 2012. If you're a bum like me, this is going to be one of our best valued getaway for real!

Seen this on Tumblr and this really brings back lots of memories. LOL! Bedtimes! hahaha! And I was always the one being pushed out on the edge of the bed. Yeah, so let's say I'm the silver-haired one on that image. And the other one? My closest friends which are more like brothers to me, who else? Haha!

And now I'm back with signing up to a lot of pages again. Sites that pays you to blog, post links, ads and other stuff. Sites that I'm a member before that got my blog removed because of inactivity. Sites where my blog was earning before. Sites that I should have maintained my relationship with. I really don't regret on things but letting all those online opportunities slip away, God knows how much I am regretting it all now.

UPDATE: As of 5PM today. I'm done with my new template. I just hope this gets approved the time I add this blog again! Read my previous post about Look Matters to know why the sudden change of template.

Alright, I was on my way to bed when I received this email. Hi, Unfortunately this site cannot be approved at this time because the template of your home page does not meet our requirements. Regards, Angela

Lately I've been putting myself together to complete MYSELF again. This present moment is actually the future of my past. And like what Christina said on that image above, "Screw you, future me..." -- that is also the same and exact words that I wanted to say to the present me.

Rynault and I happened to talk about the blogs that we made in the past and then I thought of checking back one of my oldest blog and here are some of the highlights of it. Just a reminder, please don't laugh? I know that this blog was really messly.. (if there is such a word, haha!) done. Let's just say that this was time when I made my earliest attempts to blog! XD

I know, I know. I wasn't been able to keep this up for months! Just got busy with my new career on which I'm actually trying to figure out how I can be much better with. I've been studying much, learning stuff, meeting people and attending trainings and webinars and things like that. So what really made me get back to this blog is because of this shocking realization that I experienced which happened to be one of the biggest that I've had. And yes, it's about TRUST.

I was looking around on Facebook when I saw this being posted by KevJumba : It's actually a video posted by thesupplyedu and take note, it's the first video posted on their Youtube page! God! Just imagine that! Watching that video made me feel a lot of excitement and joy because I know and I believe that it is so possible for KevJumba to travel there and teach those kids. But what made my heart melt more is this next video!

And It's time for me to share a post here on my blog! First post for 2011 and first post as I enter my 25th year of existence in this pretty wonderful world full of life. I was supposed to be posting lots of random stuff, negative stuff.. but my mood changed and got better because of what just happened! :D Best birthday greeting so far: Luigi De Jesus Paz: "Motherfucker 'to! Hahaha. Kahit asshole 'yun, ex pa rin 'yun. At kumuha ng hawig ko. Fucker diba? Bully ka! Happy birthday, fucker! Hahahahaha!" It really cracked the hell out of me and everything just got better! Haha! I mean, I felt happier and because of that, I'm only thinking of happy thoughts right now! :D Well, as you all know being 24 gave me the time to discover a lot of things in my life. What I really wanted to do and to achieve. Then just now, I suddenly remembered my past birthdays. As far as I could remember, my 23rd birthday was I think the worst birthday ever. I was so br...