Now I get it!

"I can't be with you as your boyfriend, but that doesn't mean that I don't love you."

A line from a film that I recently watched. At first my reaction was, "Why can't they be?"

I was really been blown away by this film. I just can't help it, I was really been moved. I must admit, the plot of the story is just so typical, something that everybody can relate to, or can even share the same experience of. The story on how a family was living so happy together which became in one point of time happened to loose someone so dear, the story of being self-independent, of being close to God, the story of being inlove and being loved. All of these things are really common to almost all of us, right?

The Love of Siam

And that's what I'm talking about, The Love of Siam. I just don't remember it very clearly on how I managed to learn about the existence of this film. Its actually a thai movie and what made it a some sort of a talk of the town is its plot having a yaoish theme, a pink film as it is being called now.

So there, going back to the line that I threw up there, If you're being so childish, or let's say the immature type, you might be also telling me my same reaction that I gave. I really didn't stop watching it over and over again until I found out why. Why is it better for them to stay like that?

A scene from the movie just answered me this. Loneliness.. Frighteningly lonely. When we were a child, we tend to be lonely if we can't make a lot of friends, but as we grow older, what makes us be more lonely is the thought of how we are going to keep the people we love till the end. Had you ever been aware of the word separation? Or the phrase be separated? You know what? This movie is just so right about this matter.

"If we can love someone so much, how will we be able to handle it right when we get separated? And, if being separated is a part of life and you know about separation well, is it possible that we can love someone and never be afraid of losing them?"

Maybe, if we'll gonna consider a family in this case, it is somehow easier to accept that someday, kids will grow up and will be responsible enough to start their own family as well. But thinking about the person that you most love.. that would be the hardest thing anyone could ever deal with.

"Is it possible that, we live our entire life without loving anyone at all?"

"..that's my loneliness too. I had been living with it some quite of time now, And I know just how bad loneliness feels. I fear it will continue to get worse."

This just really explains to me now why I always wanted to be in a relationship where in I'm sure that there will always be a lot of time for us to be seeing each other, this may sound awkward but its better if we only live in the same place. right? I don't know. I've been in a long distance relationship in a count of almost 3 years before I think. And I just don't want to be in that same situation again. I've become more into spending time together than just letting the day pass without us seeing each other. Isipin mo nalang rin yung ititipid mo kung magkasama lang kayo sa bahay.. walang hassle sa pamasahe para magkita kayo. Kahit pano may point naman diba? But I am not here to keep you from feeling the one of the most wonderful thing called Love.

"How will you make it from now on? But I believe so much that you can make it without me because you have so much love for one another, even though sometimes, it seems to be too much that we end up hurting each other, but I believe as time goes by, we would all agree that there is no such thing as " too much love", even if we made mistakes along the way, it's better than never having tried to love and be loved. Wouldn't you agree, life always give us opportunities to start all over again, after we learn from our mistakes. I hope you take these opportunities and take good care of one another. Thank you for everything and hope there is a chance that we will see each other again."

Somehow, it is the easiest way to let go of someone, even if you're already dying inside only not to let this kind of situation happen. If not the easiest, it may be somehow the easier way. Its just like telling "If it's us, then in God's time, its gonna be us."

So now, a mature type of person will be the one to tell you the lines, "I can't be with you as your boyfriend, but that doesn't mean that I don't love you." This somehow assures you that he will never be separated from you whatever happens.


[You were sound asleep in my arms, I tried not to wake you.] [Thanks for staying, I hope you got home safely.]