What's the biggest shot? The Office. I finally named it my "Loneliest place on Earth" and hell yeah, so true! I now only go to the office for plain work and to super patiently wait for the clock to hit 4PM or until all my tasks are done, then go. Looks so boring right? Nice it may seem if I'm pretty much busy, so this made me somehow loved Tuesdays, Wednesdays and even Saturdays, since these days are the busiest days of my week, but hell to Thursdays and Fridays! These are just the damn wicked days which really kills me to death! Days that at most of the time, I'm doing nothing! So the pain is there, the sadness is there, sometimes, even tears are there.. just say, c'mon! what else could you ask for! I'm lonely and so much broke!
I'm not really hiding it. You may see me smile at times, laugh at times, but that doesn't mean that I'm fine. I'm even thinking of leaving.. again. A thought that was already been with me months back. And its coming back to me again. I'm even giving myself weeks to decide before the processing of my Visa comes to place. I love my new job now, but it's just like being in a relationship. Love isn't just the thing there. I love my new job but I'm not really happy about staying there. I love doing the job but it's more like I fail doing it right because of my unstable state of being in such place like that. Honestly? It isn't anymore good for me to be in that kind of atmosphere now, if you know what I mean.
If you are not aware of what's this all about? then crap! Almost everyone's noticing it already. And its been over a month now so how couldn't you notice it? I even had a post about it here before! But you know what? If you really didn't even get a hint of what's been happening? I envy you. Simple. Because you don't give a damn about it. If only I could ever make myself care less about this fuckin drama, then I shouldn't be hurt like this!
You know why? because you guys just simply made this scar that I had deeper than how it was before. Pretty simple right? But anyways, there's nothing more to do. Like I know its worse, and now I just gave up and is now expecting things to get worst, or if not, for things to stay like this, if not forever, for the longest time.
So as long as I still don't have my decision, for as long as I still don't know how to get these things be explained to my superiors if ever I get my decision.. I'll just have to endure this whole damn thing until I get used to it.
Move on? Dammit! You already know how hard it is for me to do it! I know that this kind of same thing already happened before between me and my bestbud, It was so hard to accept that things went on like that between us. Same to now, I treasure all those almost 3 years of being with the company.. of being with them.. but i just might as well put all of those inside of my treasure chest since these will just be good to be called now as treasured moments.
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Next best shot? Ozine. They are now my pure source of happiness. I can smile and laugh genuinely whenever I'm with them. I love it when there's gonna be an event or meet-ups because being with them make me not to worry. I'm always being pre-occupied with joy and fun! Everything feels just so light they're just like my haven.
So from there, you might know pretty well where I'm getting my strength and where the biggest push in my life is coming from. Love from them is overflowing and that is one thing that I can be proud of on having them.
These are just some of the recent pics that I've been with them! T'was Jam and Ukiya's day to treat us after their birthday! ^^
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Next up! Star Cinema's In My Life. T'was its 2nd day of movie screening when I decided to go watch the movie. Though I was at the mall on its first day, I didn't got the time to watch it alone. Anyways, starred by John Lloyd Cruz, Luis Manzano and Vilma Santos, what made me love this movie is the diversity of its plot. And I also loved the fact that they laid it to its viewers so naturally where in it seemed like that everything there were just normal. Making me believe that this kind of movie will somehow change the way of how people think in regards to gay relationships and parent on actually knowing who and what their children are and what they had become.
And also, I really have my personal reason on why I watched the movie. Somehow, this is my way of supporting the film to show how our society must see things beyond what is actually there. I mean, personally, I had this right and wrong issue which I really hated, but this shouldn't be treated as something bad and wrong.. this movie just really made it best on showing how things must be accepted. That these kind of things should be treated as normal as other things are being seen.
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So there. I missed blogging, really. I know that this will be gathering a lot of criticism, you can take it to yourself, but you can also slap it straight into my face. Its up to you.
I think I hafta make a slogan out of this, These are just my thoughts and my side of my story. Things can be changed but this will be kept original.
I'm not really hiding it. You may see me smile at times, laugh at times, but that doesn't mean that I'm fine. I'm even thinking of leaving.. again. A thought that was already been with me months back. And its coming back to me again. I'm even giving myself weeks to decide before the processing of my Visa comes to place. I love my new job now, but it's just like being in a relationship. Love isn't just the thing there. I love my new job but I'm not really happy about staying there. I love doing the job but it's more like I fail doing it right because of my unstable state of being in such place like that. Honestly? It isn't anymore good for me to be in that kind of atmosphere now, if you know what I mean.
If you are not aware of what's this all about? then crap! Almost everyone's noticing it already. And its been over a month now so how couldn't you notice it? I even had a post about it here before! But you know what? If you really didn't even get a hint of what's been happening? I envy you. Simple. Because you don't give a damn about it. If only I could ever make myself care less about this fuckin drama, then I shouldn't be hurt like this!
You know why? because you guys just simply made this scar that I had deeper than how it was before. Pretty simple right? But anyways, there's nothing more to do. Like I know its worse, and now I just gave up and is now expecting things to get worst, or if not, for things to stay like this, if not forever, for the longest time.
So as long as I still don't have my decision, for as long as I still don't know how to get these things be explained to my superiors if ever I get my decision.. I'll just have to endure this whole damn thing until I get used to it.
Move on? Dammit! You already know how hard it is for me to do it! I know that this kind of same thing already happened before between me and my bestbud, It was so hard to accept that things went on like that between us. Same to now, I treasure all those almost 3 years of being with the company.. of being with them.. but i just might as well put all of those inside of my treasure chest since these will just be good to be called now as treasured moments.
Next best shot? Ozine. They are now my pure source of happiness. I can smile and laugh genuinely whenever I'm with them. I love it when there's gonna be an event or meet-ups because being with them make me not to worry. I'm always being pre-occupied with joy and fun! Everything feels just so light they're just like my haven.
So from there, you might know pretty well where I'm getting my strength and where the biggest push in my life is coming from. Love from them is overflowing and that is one thing that I can be proud of on having them.
These are just some of the recent pics that I've been with them! T'was Jam and Ukiya's day to treat us after their birthday! ^^
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Next up! Star Cinema's In My Life. T'was its 2nd day of movie screening when I decided to go watch the movie. Though I was at the mall on its first day, I didn't got the time to watch it alone. Anyways, starred by John Lloyd Cruz, Luis Manzano and Vilma Santos, what made me love this movie is the diversity of its plot. And I also loved the fact that they laid it to its viewers so naturally where in it seemed like that everything there were just normal. Making me believe that this kind of movie will somehow change the way of how people think in regards to gay relationships and parent on actually knowing who and what their children are and what they had become.
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And also, I really have my personal reason on why I watched the movie. Somehow, this is my way of supporting the film to show how our society must see things beyond what is actually there. I mean, personally, I had this right and wrong issue which I really hated, but this shouldn't be treated as something bad and wrong.. this movie just really made it best on showing how things must be accepted. That these kind of things should be treated as normal as other things are being seen.
So there. I missed blogging, really. I know that this will be gathering a lot of criticism, you can take it to yourself, but you can also slap it straight into my face. Its up to you.
I think I hafta make a slogan out of this, These are just my thoughts and my side of my story. Things can be changed but this will be kept original.
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