For the nth time I was thinking of getting a new blog again. A new personal blog actually. Then I thought of maybe just changing my blog address or maybe checking back all my previous post and remove everything not so personal. Then maybe I'll just let it be.
But the main focus of this post right now isn't really about my blog but a redefinition of what I stand in regard to showing someone you like them, may it be tru courting or tru whatever is up on your sleeves.
If you're a follower of this blog, you'd probably already know that I'm not really into courting the person that I like. As long as we both have this mutual feelings for each other, then it's settled. But if it's only a one-sided thing then forget about it. That's actually one of the few things I learned in the past. But recently, because of some certain someone who keeps making me feel special or maybe I'm just assuming it but comparing it to how I was treated before maybe I can just really say that. Hanging out and giving company is one thing I could do for someone. But giving back that romantic feeling is really out of my capacity when all I could feel is plain friendship.
#Capricorn hate when people bring up mistakes you made a long time agoIt's starting to irritate me whenever somebody's making a move on me which makes me remember how stupid I was before for this certain someone whom I almost reserved myself for years. Now that the situation's changed, I am now realizing how pathetic and blinded I have become because of a feeling that I thought was just fine to have even if it's just me.
The truth is, I'm not really that hard to please. I don't need you spending a lot for me only to show me what you feel. What you're doing isn't really helping because the more often you do it, the more confidence is being lost from me. You can call it insecurity and that is why I already told you that I still have personal issues that I need to fix. I've met a lot of people already and yes, people do have different ways of showing their affection. But not all of that works, maybe a few will but you really have to work a long way to get me.
And the idea of already being "us" even if there's nothing yet?! That's just so me way back! And I'm telling you, in the long run, you'll only hurt yourself in the process. Asking me before-hand like 2-3 days ahead of time if I've got plans is really one of my pet peeves. It always feels like you're pulling me out of the circle. I've got friends that I want to be with and I would not rather say this but, here you are acting as if you don't want to see them but in fact it's you who doesn't want me to spend time with them so that I can spend the time with you. Doesn't that sound just too selfish?
And because of that, I came up with something as a redefinition of courting if ever I get to a kind of situation like that again. For all we know, there's no bad person when it comes to courting somebody. Why would you show your flaws if your goal is to make someone fall for you, right? But that isn't the case for me. Show me the real you because believe it or not, I can easily accept people's flaws than hiding it to me and making me discover them by myself. So if you're still to court me, just stop with the kind of idea that you have and continue to become a friend of mine while treating me like how you treat your friends. If you really feel that you like me, then let's talk about that. Besides, my heart can do the talking as well. Save those special treatments when we became us, those kinds of treatments are best to be given to those who really deserves it.
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