Rashid Bums Out

I don't know if I'm in a hurry but I really need to go to bed soon, waking up by 5am is really my biggest challenge right now! XD New working schedule came in and it's an hour early than what we have before. Now we're on a 7AM-4PM shift. LOL I'll just be posting some bits of random thoughts that I'm having these days. I can't get to blog them separately so I'll be posting them here in a very random manner. --- I don't want to be monitored like every minute (I know this one's exag! XD) or every hour. It's not that I'm in a relationship right now but I just can't stand some texts that I'm receiving over the past days that's like checking on me if I already ate, or if I'm at the office, or anything close to that. What's worse is that when I didn't reply, the sender will think that I'm mad. Like come on, that is so not enough to make me mad. It's just that after being single for almost 5 years now, I'...

Spent my off on our usual weekend hang-out place and I even extended til today. We usually go home sunday night and spend our mondays on our own but it just happened that this monday was our friend's birthday and I just can't really leave knowing the fact that he might use it against me because it's just recently that I learned about the FarmVille thingy that he always mentions which means planting of hate and drama for other people. LOL Anyways, I'm back on a spot where someone's been eyeing on me thinking to make a move on me. If it wasn't that complicated it might have been kind of easy but being with the same group is really against my romantic beliefs. It isn't really a big deal for me if someone will try to court me or something but you shouldn't be with the same circle as I am. It'll just get difficult when time comes that we need to end it. Sorry about seeing it to end even before it gets started but this is something that was been buri...

And then it's happening again. Is there anything wrong being with me in the same bed sleeping with my close friend? I mean I kinda have some other few close friends but there's always this particular someone who makes it difficult for the both of us to share a single bed. I remember back in college, I tend to go home at bud's house more often than on my room in my apartment. Then of course I've been invading his room back then. For the early part, we still somehow shared his bed on bedtimes but there came a time when he started sleeping on the couch on the living room and somethimes on their duyan at the terrace. His girlfriend even noticed that and told him to go back to his room and sleep there even if I'm there. I don't want this to sound like there's this bromance thing is going on but c'mon, I just wanna know what's running on his mind on those times when he's just letting me sleep on his bed alone. Is he just making my sleep more c...

Went to office yesterday and took an off today. Thought of using my birthday leave but this day's isn't really mine. XD I was only supposed to take a half day off but it ended up taking the whole day. My manager accepted it anyways and even told me to enjoy the day. ^o^ So after leaving work, I went straight to Megamall, dropped by at Globe but their system is down. To kill more of the time left, I just played Technicka 2 til my fingers hurt. Haha! So how did this Birthday Leave happened? Remember Jay who, together with Minde, spent the whole day of my birthday with me last Sunday? It's his birthday today! And like what they did with me, Minde and me are now to spend this day of his birthday with him the whole day! And one of the major event for today is Les Miserables' movie screening! And they are even planning on watching it twice! So this day is still young and we're currently having a The World God Only Knows Season 2 marathon before hitting the ...

So I thought of posting this one up first before going to bed. It's almost 12 and I must really have to rush. LOL I haven't got the chance to post something here yesterday. I was too busy and occupied of all the things that happened from the moment my day went on until it all ended. I was even out of the house the whole day and haven't got the chance to celebrate my birthday with my sister who cooked my favorite Tuna Spaghetti! So our weekend stay-over did still happened after all and I welcomed my day with them: Jam, Shij, Minde, and Jay and Li who also went there after his shift. Usual things happened but it was my first time trying Jam's Canal Mix, I dunno but they call it that, an alcoholic mix made out of, well.. I think you'll never want to know but it tasted really good, better than the Hell Mix that we always have. And that's a different mix as well. LOL We were all getting drunk until they all started watching Les Miserables, the 25th Anniversa...

And here I am with them after all those rants that I posted last night. Somehow, they made it possible for us to meet. Lol So weekend stay-over is still a habit. And of course I let them know of how bad I felt last night. Hehe! Just waiting for the few minutes more before the clock hits 12 then it's a happy birthday to me! ^^ *Sent from my BlackBerry®

I just learned that such a term existed. I was only supposed to search on Google if there are people like me who are getting emotional and all as their birthday comes near.. And this was the result that I got. PBS. For an unkown reason, I got myself to stop sending GM's to my friends. We're not really texting like having a constant topic to talk about though. It's just me sending lots of random stuff to them which are more like the ignorable kind of texts. It's not like I'm putting up a wall between me and them but I just don't know. Maybe it was just my way of knowing who will reach out and knock that wall down.. But putting myself on their place.. I might have done the same thing. I know that this post isn't going anywhere and I'm starting to sound so pathetic but I think I just got bored all of a sudden. And that boredom made me realize that I was walking down that path alone again. Or maybe I got tired of sending GM's thinking that, ...