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Pre-Birthday Syndrome

I just learned that such a term existed. I was only supposed to search on Google if there are people like me who are getting emotional and all as their birthday comes near.. And this was the result that I got. PBS.

For an unkown reason, I got myself to stop sending GM's to my friends. We're not really texting like having a constant topic to talk about though. It's just me sending lots of random stuff to them which are more like the ignorable kind of texts.

It's not like I'm putting up a wall between me and them but I just don't know. Maybe it was just my way of knowing who will reach out and knock that wall down.. But putting myself on their place.. I might have done the same thing.

I know that this post isn't going anywhere and I'm starting to sound so pathetic but I think I just got bored all of a sudden. And that boredom made me realize that I was walking down that path alone again.

Or maybe I got tired of sending GM's thinking that, "yeah, they might have read it. or more like they've just ignored it so I'm not going to expect any replies."

Then I sent 1 again this evening. Just my way to reconnect and know if we will be having our weekend stay-over. But true to what I expected, no texts went in. It was actually my plan to welcome my day with them if only that stay-over could push through.

So since that's the case.. That plan was already been thrown out and now I'm thinking of spending it alone on Sunday. Or maybe not. Or maybe yes. It's more like a come what may kind of situation really.

I don't have anything against anyone because I know that this is just a part of me who's always been sensitive every time my birthday is coming near. After a couple of days I'm sure I'll be coming back to my old self so don't worry that much. :)
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xian said…
Sometimes text isn't really reliable :(
So as much as possible, don't just announce it thru text XD LOL!

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