Other Meaning

i was on my way home when this kid went up on the jeepney that i was in.. holidng this white envelope with this written on it..

kaunting tulong lang po para sa pagkain at damit naming magkakapatid..

the envelope was suppose to be used for asking some help.. some financial help.. and it is given to all who are in that ride. some will give, some didn't..

and i am one of those who didn't gave..

i dunno.. i do give alms before.. before when i still haven't know that the kids that i was helping was only using the money that to buy... rugby.. so that was it.. after knowing.. i didn't ever gave anything to anyone like them anymore.. haay.. i might turn bad coz of that but.. i don't want them to use my help to ruin their lives.. T_T

anyways.. if these kids are really so helpless.. why don't they volunteer theirselves to dswd.. dba? nang sa ganun.. mapaayos sila.. and siguro naman tatanggapin sila ng ahensyang yun kasi nga yun ang dapat na ginagawa nila..

then.. at home.. i was really friggin starving.. and there's nothing available to eat.. i mean.. no ready to eat food is available on the table.. on the fridge.. or anywhere at home.. waah.. so what i did was.. yeah.. coocked 2 lucky me pancit canton.. i still have to wait almost 10 mins to prepare it.. then got some slice of bread.. chocolate spread.. and a pitcher of sweet ponkan.. haay..

and that was really the real meaning of life.. to eat after the loooong time of being starving! hahahaha.. *burp* yummy yum yum! ^^;;

anyways.. its the end of the week for me! and haay.. i want to go out this weekend.. but where.. with whom.. waah.. hmm.. i need to be online this weekend to be on track on what's happening to our dorm at ozine! hehe.. *thinks*

btw.. i don't know how to feel.. i was been with this team for.. err.. 3 weeks now.. but still i haven't still got the time to have jamming with them.. there happened to have two occasions.. simple ones.. inuman.. parang ganun.. but then.. i haven't been able to be with the group coz i was been with ate kris' company by those times..

i dunno.. i'm sitting still with the team that i used to be part of.. far from where my whole team is.. maybe.. its the reason why i feel this way..

its strange coz i feel that i'm err.. being left out?! that i'm just an add up in this team.. feeling like.. i'm not that important for the team.. waa.. my self esteem is starting to tear off.. i feel useless.. hmm.. i know that i shouldn't be thinking this way but.. hmm.. somehow.. dba? i'm doing different task.. purely applications.. another reason why i'm not with the most meeting that they are having.. but.. waah.. if there's no updates.. what am i suppose to do!? haaay.. its freakin killing me out..

now i'm gathering applications of the top revenued skus.. just to kill the time.. haay..

anyways.. where's my requested extra monitor by the way.. gawd......