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And this is where I stand

Warning: This post contains words which may not be suitable to a very wide group of readers. If you've got problems with direct to rough and offensive thoughts, PLEASE, DO NOT READ FURTHER. You've been warned.

This is in regards with Igi Boy's Shut The Fuck Up post on his multiply journal.

But before I proceed, let me make this clear. Since you've already reached this far, I assume that you've already prepared yourself to what you are going to read on my today's post. If you've got some reactions, you may keep it to yourself and contemplate but there's always a choice for you to leave a comment about what's on your mind and let's see what we can do. I'll respect anything from all of you, Its your mind thinking, not mine.

So to move on, Igi Boy and I had a chat about this biatch (as what Igi Boy's friend described her) who seemed to saw this some kind of divine light which made her be what she knows she is right now. I've got no problem about the path that she's going through right now, As if I care. And this all started with this..

"hypocrites are everywhere. may bakla palang homophobic. oh well. see you in hell, bitch?"


Then there goes this some kinda acting innocent girl who only knows nothing but the holy words asking Igi Boy, who use that as he's YM status, if he believe in the existence of hell.

Full conversation can be found on his Journal.

What made our chat burn hot is when this lady prophet is encouraging, to the point of even forcing Igi Boy to believe that there really is hell!

Come on! Does she really have to go that far just to make us believe that hell exist?! I hate people telling me straight to my face something that they didn't even proved yet. I hate people acting that they know everything! I know this isn't my business but this isn't just the only thing that happened to me when it comes to that hell thing be it existing or not.

There's this banner ad that I always come across with whenever I go to eat for breakfast and it just says exactly what that little converted into goodness girl had said. "Do you believe in hell?"

You know what hell is for me? If it connotes the opposite of heaven, this place that we are all living now is hell. Simple as that. Why? Get real! Where else will you find all kinds of sins? Nowhere else but here, right? So believe it or not, we are all living in hell.

But of course, we, people, have different perspectives in life. I can't blame you if you're not going to believe in what I believed on. Its your choice, and as much as I wanted it to say again, Its your mind thinking, not mine.

Ok, fine. Maybe you're asking. "Aren't you RC? Err.. should I say "Aren't you a part of the Roman Catholic family? As much as I wanted to. I was born Islam. And that's what I am still until now. I've always been thinking to convert myself religiously but I ended up forming my own principles in life.

Is being part of a religion a requirement in order for us to live in this kind of miserable place? Some people even tell us that we are not going to be saved if we won't follow them in their quest to see the light. That you're not going to be blessed with the divine mercy.

Can't we just let ourselves live in a simpler life without worrying much about who's gonna guide us spiritually!? I may now be talking about faith here but does the word faith should only be used and be limited with the spiritual being referred as God?

Can you actually feel God's grace? If I would to apply here the "To see is to believe" thing, then, I don't. I may not seem to see the air that I'm breathing but I know its there. Of course I can feel it even though I can't barely see it.

I'm not being an atheist here or anything. I also pray to God even though I don't believe in Him that much. Its something that I believe more on falling stars granting a wish rather than asking and hoping for someone you couldn't even see to let something happen. And here's something that I want to share, even though you can't see a star falling, try telling them your wish. I'm sure somewhere above there, a star is falling, and there should always be a falling star, its just that our eyes are not that powerful to use magnifications to see the real star falling.

See the difference? Its not that I lack faith but I do have complete confidence in me that lets me know what to believe in.

There's this line that goes,

"Everybody wants to go to heaven but nobody wants to go first."


See? Life itself is really a BIG BLUFF to me.

Maybe what's left for us to do is to enjoy life as long as we could. People say that we only borrowed our lives from Him and everything that's been happening to us is because of His will.

So, Am I suppose to see myself as a puppet in a world that He built?

That may sound strange but still, I believe in free will. That nobody can ever influence me on deciding what's good or bad for me. On what I'm supposed to do or on what I wanted my life to be. You can say that it is still God's plan for me to be like this, I don't care. As long as I know and can clearly remember that its ME who picked the choice for myself and not anybody else, I'm fine.

I also do believe in luck, and luck always goes with the connection between everyone living here on earth. I believe that the action of one can always affect other people's deed. And this naturally affects me also. And that's where my free will starts. I choose paths depending on how the situation is being laid upon on me. You may think that are lives are just following some script, but its not. Still, you have your mind running. And most importantly, you're not the one going with the flow.

I believe in karma as well. In the sense that when your action was known. When you give kindness, they will give you back the kindness. But when you've done bad, people will try to do you bad in return. Its just somehow defines the phrase, to give back the favor. well, this now goes also to the line, "Give love to the world, and the world will give love back to you"

As time goes by, principles are being formed within us, and this is what is guiding us through out. So, if you know for yourself that you have the right to stay on earth alive, then you should know how to respect other people living on the same plane as to where as you are right now. Learn from them and do not impose something up on them because no one can ever let ourselves believe on one thing but ourselves alone. And this is where I stand.

Comments

Lu said…
Isang malaking 'OH WELL'.