Rashid Bums Out

Here I go again having an unstable mind and a disorganized line of thoughts about something. This whole day, I mean yesterday's whole day, since its all ready 4AM, just had my head so occupied by things which I'm not sure of. I'm bragging about what's right to do on things that I wanna do because I'm scared of making mistakes again. Scared that I might be wrong again.. that I myself is still a mistake. Giving deductions to things after being so distressed is still making me.. weak. And thinking of what's the rightmost thing to do now makes me so helpless. I know that somehow, I can still find my right kind of wrong but.. does this always have to torment me every time I'll gonna make a wrong one be good and right? Maybe what I'm afraid of is rejection, maybe that's why I'm afraid of doing things right even if i know its right all along. But Perspective varies among different minds. What is right to some may be wrong for others, and it goes on and ...

Is feeling sleepy at work.. >.< Got myself hit the sack at around 1:30AM this morning. So really lazy to do things. Good thing because I manage to finish all my pending tasks this morning. Hmm.. I just have to wait for the other bunch of files to come and do the findings. (2 hours later) Just had my powernap! haha! and somehow i'm half? awake! lolz! Still waiting for the file to be finished on their side though. I just hope I could get outta here early immediately after work, I still have to drop by at Megamall to pick up my new glasses. I just hope I can get a good night sleep later to prevent this kind of sleepy experience again.. haha! Anyways.. I'm now owning The Atrium one after the another! lmao! Don't dare mess with me there! hahaha! Me, baby Rye and Arashi went out yesterday. These two school boys just really wanted to go out coz school is killing them already.. haha! Midterms, Prelims and all! Since yesterday was a holiday, again, thanks to Tita Cory, we went...

Today just happened to be one of the most laziest day we had. Laziest because there's nothing much to do. Only did some revisions on some files and that's it. Now we're just waiting for the clock to hit 4 then we're off. Anyways.. mum's here to help me process my papers for NSO and DFA. Really hafta rush things out most specially on renewing my passport. But DFA just doesn't permit us to renew my passport coz I still don't have a copy of my birth certificate in NSO. So what comes first now is to settle this birth certificate thing. I just hope that the process will not take long coz I don't want to cause a delay on scheduling our training. >.> 30mins more before 4PM. Haay.. I think I'm back on practicing this idea again. "I only eat to nourish my body with the nutrients that it needs" I don't think I am enjoying having meals again.. with other people.. So I'll just cut this short for now.. Back to plurk and tweets!

I wonder who's reading this lame blog that I have right now.. I mean, I almost became an inactive blogger these passed few weeks.. so.. just to let me know.. if you happened to drop by.. could you please leave a comment like what the others do on my shout box... please? Anyways, these weekend happened to be the not-I-used-to-have weekend. I went out on a Sunday and just sat in front of my PC the whole Monday. Where in what I should have done was be in front of the PC the whole Sunday and do the chores on Monday. Isn't that my usual thing over the weekend? lolz. Oh right.. I consider Sundays and Mondays my weekend since these are my days off. So there, though I left the house yesterday at around 6PM, it still made a difference to my Sunday. Right? Hmm.. let me just remember what I did yesterday morning.. Geez.. there's nothing to remember coz I woke up noon yesterday.. haha! the early (yet is really late) part of my day just happened like how I spend my Sundays just that I ...

Its been quite a while. So you might ask.. what's makin me busy? I really don't know.. All I know is.. I'm enjoying killing the time. Resorting to things that can make myself occupied for my everyday. Went out a while ago to eat my dinner when thoughts started to rush into my mind again. Like someone within me saying.. "I need to be inspired.." I don't know about this line but I suddenly remembered this.. "1% inspiration and 99% perspiration" I'm not really a geek to apply that line to my life but on how I look on to my life now.. Life at work's really starting to eat the whole of me. Maybe taking my daily dose of kilig from people isn't enough.. But is there really still a need for me to look for this 1% of inspiration for me? Or maybe its a sign that I'm so much depriving myself from feeling the "inspiring" type of love that's why the inner me is making its way out. People now kept on telling me.. I was given an oppor...

Hafta chillax. Hafta stop wasting time. Hafta get serious. Hafta plan. Hafta do it right. Hafta make it happen. Hafta go to sleep now. Hafta go to work early.

yeah! Make it single times 2! haha! Just realized that 4 days ago.. t'was my first year being single.. then just a while ago.. there goes another thing happened that made me single times 2! haha! Its not bothering me much now.. I'm happy for my NGSB baby that now he found the one he's waiting for to be his girlfriend.. nyuuu.. alright.. hafta admit this one.. kinda sad coz i dunno if he's still goin to be my baby after that.. but knowing that he's going to be happy knowing that somehow he found another piece of his life now.. I'm gonna be good with that na! hehe.. anyways.. whatever happens.. he'll still be my baby naman.. wag lang magagalit si gf.. kahit na sya na pala yung katext ko kanina.. lolz! oh well.. think its time to sleep na.. still have to go to work later.. nyt guys!