i visited our house.. it was almost finished.. walls all cemented.. roof which are not nipas anymore.. though the expansion's not yet done.. somehow it can now be called a home..
lately.. whenever i go there to see the development.. i ended up thinking about things that i know i shoudn't be thinking of.. but.. almost everything that was used there came from me.. and that made me sacrifice my monthly wage.. i'm not suppose to be doing that.. but what else can i do.. i'm the only one left for the house to be constructed again.. what about my mum and dad..!? duhh.. they will only tell me that they are not capable of doing those stuff anymore.. the both of them are now dependent to their partners.. so what can we, the children expect.. love..? care..? support..? yeah.. i will never have any problems with my mum.. but as for our dad.. it's going to be another story..
soon we'll be moving back there.. there where memories were made to fade.. can't help but to remember all those things..
it was the house that was long built for us since we were still like.. a grader? but some relative came and ask grandma if they could use it first since we were still living at Nabua.. of course with the agreement of when we are to be needing the house.. that would be the time for them to leave... then.. we moved to camalig back 2003.. but haven't had the house yet.. til last year when we had our hands on it.. reason? i don't know.. maybe because they had already spent a lot for building the house into what it looked like before we stayed there.. they like owned it.. things became so complicated that time coz our families are starting to have this argument about that.. which later on had ended because of what my tita had told them.. well.. because of the frightening factor.. they went off and surrendered our house..
entering that house also reminds me of someone whom i'm with for almost 3 weeks.. ye.. someone who stayed there for a span of 3 weeks.. that house just happened to be the only witness of everything between us.. if before i can't even get close that house and even don't want to go home anymore.. now.. its the other way around.. things accepted..
then it was been wrecked by Milenyo.. its really a total disaster for us.. the typhoon really made us leave the house and stay at our aunt's til actually... now.. things happen for a reason.. i don't really know but that storm which was then followed by Reming.. whoah!! that really made up my life.. i'm really depressed by that time.. haven't actually been healed.. then there goes the storm which added up to ruin my thoughts.. but somehow.. it did helped me clear up some things.. i should be moving on.. maybe those storms were sent to wash away all my burden and start a new life.. there's nothing more i can do back then but to think positively towards what happened..
Now.. we're just waiting for the house to be ready for our relocation.. hehe.. then from there let's start a new chapter.. :D
lately.. whenever i go there to see the development.. i ended up thinking about things that i know i shoudn't be thinking of.. but.. almost everything that was used there came from me.. and that made me sacrifice my monthly wage.. i'm not suppose to be doing that.. but what else can i do.. i'm the only one left for the house to be constructed again.. what about my mum and dad..!? duhh.. they will only tell me that they are not capable of doing those stuff anymore.. the both of them are now dependent to their partners.. so what can we, the children expect.. love..? care..? support..? yeah.. i will never have any problems with my mum.. but as for our dad.. it's going to be another story..
soon we'll be moving back there.. there where memories were made to fade.. can't help but to remember all those things..
it was the house that was long built for us since we were still like.. a grader? but some relative came and ask grandma if they could use it first since we were still living at Nabua.. of course with the agreement of when we are to be needing the house.. that would be the time for them to leave... then.. we moved to camalig back 2003.. but haven't had the house yet.. til last year when we had our hands on it.. reason? i don't know.. maybe because they had already spent a lot for building the house into what it looked like before we stayed there.. they like owned it.. things became so complicated that time coz our families are starting to have this argument about that.. which later on had ended because of what my tita had told them.. well.. because of the frightening factor.. they went off and surrendered our house..
entering that house also reminds me of someone whom i'm with for almost 3 weeks.. ye.. someone who stayed there for a span of 3 weeks.. that house just happened to be the only witness of everything between us.. if before i can't even get close that house and even don't want to go home anymore.. now.. its the other way around.. things accepted..
then it was been wrecked by Milenyo.. its really a total disaster for us.. the typhoon really made us leave the house and stay at our aunt's til actually... now.. things happen for a reason.. i don't really know but that storm which was then followed by Reming.. whoah!! that really made up my life.. i'm really depressed by that time.. haven't actually been healed.. then there goes the storm which added up to ruin my thoughts.. but somehow.. it did helped me clear up some things.. i should be moving on.. maybe those storms were sent to wash away all my burden and start a new life.. there's nothing more i can do back then but to think positively towards what happened..
Now.. we're just waiting for the house to be ready for our relocation.. hehe.. then from there let's start a new chapter.. :D
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About parents I always have this mentality that I have no obligation or whatsoever to them. I can only repay the things they have done to me if there is actually one by being a parent myself.
Anywho, yey you're still alive! Good, good! Ok buhbye.