And the moon is high up there. Maybe I'm really experiencing my full moon syndrome again. And hell I was right. I don't know but full moons have always been a critical time for me each month. Though this one's just a personal belief but I still keep myself cautious of what's going to happen.
But reading from my previous post, a lot had already happened. Last week I was all over with my friends, but now I'm sulking at work having less interaction with the world. Yes, I was the one who decided this but inside me, fear is starting to grow. If this continues, I'll be experiencing another familiar situation, me fading. So ironic but I find this easier than taking a risk to reconnect without knowing if a hand is still willing to grab mine. #DramaOverload
Damn, my blog's being itself again because of these kinds of entries.
I just hate it when I'm on the verge of losing another close friend again. It has always been a big deal but I was always on the losing end for not making a way to at least prevent it from happening. Why am I even thinking about this? Because this has always been a thing with me. It may look like I'm not good when it comes with keeping them but it's the thought of them leaving that hurts me and the feeling of pain is the one that keeps me from going back on that cycle.
But still I take chances, with other people that I get to befriend. I'm not anymore hoping for a happy ending in those romantic relationships knowing that there will always come a time for a fall-out, something that my ex had engraved deep in my heart. So at least I'm trying my best to somehow be a part of something that most people say that lasts, friendship. But reality bites, even that has its ending.
I don't know really, I'm fine with me being solitary... or maybe not.
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