I know right, i hate that title post but its what I think is fitting for this post. I'm not gonna dig in about that song.. I just really so hate it.. why? read the lyrics.. you'll know! Anyways, there are still people reading my blog.. nice to know.. the old ones, and there are also the new ones.. But I hope you're not getting tangled up by the posts that you're reading.. It sometimes doesn't concern you but it's always been about me..
Someone told me.. keep a journal of how you feel for the day and not of what you did, that way.. you'll grow as a person. I'm trying. Sometimes its just hard for me to blog everything out. Sometimes I thought that I'll just keep everything to myself. But most of the time, I tend to blurt it out without thinking how this will affect the readers. But again I'm gonna tell you this, this only contains my side of the story. This is how I think and how I see things.
Tears ran down yesterday, can't help it. I just dunno what to do. A lot of what ifs went on through my mind.. thinking of what should be done. But still, what I thought best was to remain like this because I will never be the same me anyways.. I've got no problems if someone's gonna approach me and be as casual as like before. And wala namang naging problema noon dba?! It just so happened when that day came when nobody tried to talk to me and now lasted to almost two weeks! Should I be the one reaching out? I don't know. If people decided not to, then be it. At first I thought that they might only be busy with their stuff. But that was the only day that I remembered that I haven't got the chance to talk with them even if its a busy day to all. Then Wednesday came. Thursday. Friday. Saturday. Its becoming evident as those days were passing by. So let it be.
Its fine with me. If its because of me that they decided then that's nothing for me to argue with. I know that I'm being so hard to understand now. I'm so hard to deal with now. People can get tired, I know. And even before, I was telling this to him. I don't want to mess up with the fun of the group so its better if I'll be gone. Me being there will only give limits to everything, if I'm not there, people will not be going to worry anymore.
Someone told me.. keep a journal of how you feel for the day and not of what you did, that way.. you'll grow as a person. I'm trying. Sometimes its just hard for me to blog everything out. Sometimes I thought that I'll just keep everything to myself. But most of the time, I tend to blurt it out without thinking how this will affect the readers. But again I'm gonna tell you this, this only contains my side of the story. This is how I think and how I see things.
Tears ran down yesterday, can't help it. I just dunno what to do. A lot of what ifs went on through my mind.. thinking of what should be done. But still, what I thought best was to remain like this because I will never be the same me anyways.. I've got no problems if someone's gonna approach me and be as casual as like before. And wala namang naging problema noon dba?! It just so happened when that day came when nobody tried to talk to me and now lasted to almost two weeks! Should I be the one reaching out? I don't know. If people decided not to, then be it. At first I thought that they might only be busy with their stuff. But that was the only day that I remembered that I haven't got the chance to talk with them even if its a busy day to all. Then Wednesday came. Thursday. Friday. Saturday. Its becoming evident as those days were passing by. So let it be.
Its fine with me. If its because of me that they decided then that's nothing for me to argue with. I know that I'm being so hard to understand now. I'm so hard to deal with now. People can get tired, I know. And even before, I was telling this to him. I don't want to mess up with the fun of the group so its better if I'll be gone. Me being there will only give limits to everything, if I'm not there, people will not be going to worry anymore.
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but you know.. i feel like you're drifting too much..
i may not know that much about you or may not know who are the people talking to you right now, but i feel that you've been gone into seclusion for so long.. don't you think that's the reason why you've been feeling like this all along? :/
just being frank kuya rashid... and yeah, we miss you.. actually i'm worried... puro work nlng gngwa mo.. err correct me if i'm wrong..