Take that, dig that? remember that!
I can't really believe it that it took me a long 8 months before I can think of what I really wanted for my life to become. In short, me planning for my life took 256 days of my life just for me to realize everything. Still not wasted if I'm going to think it that way because it made me experience what I need to see and learn, so really, there's no need for regrets!
This might become a look back for me since this post is going to record this day as my turning point and I'm going to work this out for it to be a real turning point for me. This is not going to be another "I will do this differently starting tomorrow" kind of lines that you usually get from me. So just read on if you want to know more about what happened to me while I'm being funemployed..
April 15. I resigned from my previous full-time job, my biggest step of finishing the same cycle that I lived for a whole 3 years of simply, nothingness. For the past 3 years and 6 months I ended up having nothing on me. No savings, only debts to pay. But of course I will not deny that on my length of stay to that company helped me a lot in molding me into someone of who I am now since it was actually the first company that I worked with. Of course it's tough but the experience that I gained there is incomparable. If you worked there, you'll know, right? *wink*
February to June. I was living with my closest friends slash next to family on those months. Being with them really saved me from all those stress that I had from my previous job. I continued writing for the magazines, Otakuzine and Otaku Vault. I'm not a good writer though but it really helped me live life with happiness since writing and anime are really my hobbies. We also go planning for events and had great time with lots of people. And I really have to admit this, that was my happiest and most relaxing part of my funemployed days. There's nothing else to worry and it's like everyday is a new day, all fun and food! LOL!
June. My sister got an interview here in Manila and decided to move in this urban city. This part is where I really had to make a decision of staying with them or living with my sister. It was hard knowing that I loved it living with Ozine already, and the fact that our ever cuddly little big baby Taffy is there to always cheer us up is just sooo irresistible. But at the end of that day, I decided to move back to the apartment where I lived before together with my friends housemates.
June to December. I was still funemployed. I tried applying to some but ended up having a no-call-back from them. It was hard, since I wanted some change, I tried applying for positions that I only have a little experience to begin with. A big fault on my side because doing this is not marketable enough compared to those fresh graduates. All I want that time is to get back on track using what I learned from college, to be in line with IT, programming and the like. But thinking about it again just makes me think that maybe it's not really for me. After this I went back to apply for Data Analyst positions accepting that I'll just go starting all over again and reach the top using the 3 years experience that I gained from my previous job. So i started going out again to deal with all of the application drama, I even went back to Teledev to re-apply but up to this date, I haven't heard from them at all. My referral bonus from them is even taking its time for too long already and I haven't received a call about it as well. I mean, they told me to wait for 2 weeks, so what happened? I should have already used that to apply to somewhere else or for me to have something to spend for Christmas. I even tried applying for online jobs like virtual assistants, writers, and others. I also tried looking for some paid to post/click/advertise but they don't seem to be working fine with me anymore.
November. Parteh Pipoys was created. A Saturday group of young individuals hanging out together to have fun. We go malling, eating to different Food courts/Food Gardens, play and sing til you drop, and just hang out til dawn at our favorite Shell Select convenience store. And this I have to thanks my ever-generous sister for letting me spend some of her hard-earned pot of gold for me to be able to go out with the group. Also in November, the Youtube addiction. A kind of addiction which made me realize a lot of things in life. Watching, David Choi, Ryan Higa, Kevin Wu, Kina Grannis, Wong Fu Productions, AJ Rafael, Chester See, Arden Cho and many more others started to become an inspiration to me. At such a young age they are already living the life that they wanted through their passion. I've been reading their tweets, posts, watching their videos and from there I've been learning a lot of things that I really need in my life.
So that's how I can best describe the things that happened in my life in the past. After a lot of realizations that occurred, at last I learned what I really want now for my life. An even brighter future as soon as possible. I know it's what everybody wants but why the same as everyone wants?
I'll be turning 25 next year. That one thing popped out all of the sudden while I am taking a shower. The 24 years that I'm spending right now haven't brought me up there yet, so when am I going to start? I'll be turning 25 this January and I want to act it out, apply everything I learned towards reaching my goal. I learned ways of making things happen. I might not be able to sing well like David Choi, Kina Grannis, Chester See and AJ Rafael, I may not be as skilled in acting like Arden Cho, Ryan Higa and Philip Wang of Wong Fu Productions, I might not be as good as Ted Fu and Wesley Chan of Wong Fu Productions on making amazing videos, and I may not be as cool as Kevin Wu aka Kevjumba on cracking jokes in front of the camera, I know for sure that I am still good with just myself doing things that I know I am capable of. And this is what I am using to lift my life a level, or even a higher level up there.
I know that it's never too late but this I want to let you know, something that I realized yesterday. The saying, "Habang may buhay may pag-asa!" doesn't seem to be true for me anymore. I'll be turning 25 next year, now I'm asking, how long do I still have in my life? 10 years? 25 years? 30 years more? Are we even sure that we are still here tomorrow? or are we sure if we can still wake up the next morning? What I mean is, that line only makes sense if you are sure of how long you will live in this world, or maybe you are this kind of immortal creature who can live without worrying. Got my point? So the least you could do is to act now and never waste your time. Besides, everything that you want to be is already written in front of your face. All you have to just do is do it yourself. If you're confused of what I wanted to say, think of it this way. Think of a house that you really really wanted to have. I'm sure you wanted it the same way of how you are seeing it. Houses have blueprints, right? Are you now following me? All you have to do is get that blueprint and make one for yourself and you'll surely be getting yourself the same house! Did you ever think that this can also be applicable to yourself? You see that successful people whom you wanted to become? Why not use their blueprints? Follow what they did to become so successful and without a doubt you'll end up to be like them if you make it right according to how they did things. This kind of thinking was pinned on to my mind by David Choi and I will always be thankful to him for sharing to me this wonderful tip in life.
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