There's Something

..and it still hurts.

I don't know why I can't let myself be that happy anymore whenever I'm there.

A post before hitting the shower.
Time Check: 9:18 PM

They invited me to go to this place. A place where I don't know if I can go to, should I really be there in the first place?

Do you know what I call that place? Its a place of freedom. And I don't want myself to be there. It isn't really for me though, its for other people's freedom. If one can decide to go, then let me just stay. Besides, that's always been the case.

What I really hate the most is going to that place with the thought of that other people's happiness, and again.. its because of the earned freedom.

Can you blame me for thinking that I became the reason of why things aren't going well whenever I'm there?

I know, this is really pretty messed up. But I just want to get away of this.. this something. I wonder if how long will it keep on holding on.

I'm still quite depressed. And it shows.

9:37 PM on the way to the shower ~~

Comments

xian said…

so parang ang feeling mo palamuti or ginagamit ka lang? O.o

May 11, 2009 at 12:37 AM

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