Those who are bitter are stronger individuals.
Wanna know why?
Because strong people know how to control their emotions..
and bitter people know when to realize that its enough & its over.
Bitterness is not a totally negative thing..
Its just a way of showing to others that in life..
There is such thing as, "I still love you..
..but I don't want you anymore."
--a text message received from Raiza and it makes sense to me!
Still, I'm being a different me when I'm at the office.. I dunno how to begin things as the way it was before. I also want to bring back the time that I can be happy without thinking anything else that will make myself suffer much. I want to bring back the urge in me to go to work being happy but from the time that I'm stepping in to that place, it feels like its not for me anymore. It feels like I need to be somewhere else and be away from my current work.
Its really a personal fight within me and myself. A struggle on how to let go of this feeling that is still holding on.
If only I can have the longest vacation just to be away.
My mom and I texted each other a while ago. I told her that I had another 130/90 BP this afternoon. Though its kinda normal, she again acted like other mom does. Prevent those foods that are bad for me, don't stay at night too late, don't skip meals, always have a pineapple juice with me, eat more fruits and all those stuff.
We also did talked about the new housemate that we're looking for. She was right, its really adding stress to me. All those financial budgets, payments, dues, rents and all the like.
My life now is really a whole bunch of stress full of things.
More stress, the higher the BP. The higher the BP, good luck to me!
Anyways, I don't know if I can make it to work tomorrow. What I have left for me now are these 12 pieces of 25 cents. Too bad for me. What's worst is, I still haven't bought my medicines until now!
Then there goes my stress meter going up again!
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