Rashid Bums Out

Last post was kinda dramatic. But today's will be cut short. I'll surely get back to patch things up to where I ended up on my last entry. Right now's going on smoothly. I'm just glad that I didn't had to lose him back then.

And the moon is high up there. Maybe I'm really experiencing my full moon syndrome again. And hell I was right. I don't know but full moons have always been a critical time for me each month. Though this one's just a personal belief but I still keep myself cautious of what's going to happen. But reading from my previous post, a lot had already happened. Last week I was all over with my friends, but now I'm sulking at work having less interaction with the world. Yes, I was the one who decided this but inside me, fear is starting to grow. If this continues, I'll be experiencing another familiar situation, me fading. So ironic but I find this easier than taking a risk to reconnect without knowing if a hand is still willing to grab mine. #DramaOverload Damn, my blog's being itself again because of these kinds of entries. I just hate it when I'm on the verge of losing another close friend again. It has always been a big deal but I was always on the l...

Getting too comfortable with someone has always been a bad habit of mine which had really caused me to get into an argument with those people I got close with. And this time, you guessed it right. Something similar happened again. Weekend was fun, Manila Ocean Park on Saturday then we got invited to have a Sunday swim with our friend's family outing. But this happy weekend ended sourly. He gets mad, I said sorry on my most normal self, he walks away. My friends went to eat, I bought mine, my friends bought his. Still mad, telling that he won't eat. Thinking that he needs it as he needs to take his med as well but still gave his food away. A little later, came near to get his food, maybe because our friend got irritated of him not eating, but still made the angry scene blaming me of why he's getting mad. I could normally ignore this if this was someone I don't really care about. Someone like a stranger or an acquaintance. But this one's different. This one's...

I know that there's nothing to worry but still there are times that I just really don't know what to feel. One second I'm happy, another second I get tired, then lonely. It's the time of the year again, Ozine Fest. I should really be excited and glad to become a part of it again but this time's different. I might have said this before that I am going to take some break off the events last year because of what happened. A couple of these events came by but this one's really on a different scale. Baggage counter. It's a part of the event where I think everything started. I don't know but somehow, it became evident that I still really have a grudge on that very tiny area.Though I already had Kuhn, together with these 3 other girls, manage it but still, the feeling really do lingers. I asked Rye to be a part of the event again. But I'm not yet sure if this one's a good idea. This time really is not anymore the same with how we get to enjoy t...

There are just a lot of things to thank of lately. I just can't even start to count! But what's made me so happy is the opportunity that I got to work at home even for a part time job and on a flexible schedule! 4-5 hours a day whenever I'm free as long as I complete the 30 hours minimum per week! This was something that I was hoping to get when I was on my bum years like 2 years ago. But now that it came in, am I not going to grab that? It's going to be a great chance for me to receive real income and I have already started working on an assignment since Sunday. Though I actually do have a professional job but living for the day is different from actually earning. What just happened made me go back to my goals on what to achieve. To discipline myself even more for me to be able to do things smoothly. I won't be letting go of this chance and that's what I'm gonna work on really hard. Though since I have a full-time day-shift job, plus th...

My blogger/friend Rozeh held a domain giveaway for her 4th blog anniversary and I was so lucky to be her secondary winner to receive a free 1 year .info domain! Now thinking of what I will do about the new domain. I've been already maintaining a personal blog.. maybe I'll try running a niche site for a change. Hmm. o.Oa And of course, please do visit her sites at Kettobase  and Technowish -- Thanks again Rozeh!

A friend asked me if I know any stores which caters Hotel Supply Online . Since this one's a bit new to me, I tried to look for some over the internet and found PeachSuite Hotel Supply . They are offering a wide array of selections from hotel, resort and restaurant supplies and equipment and are providing free shipping for items purchased amounting to over $500. This amount isn't really bad when we are talking about products from the top selling brands like All-Clad, Anchor, OXO, Riegel, Chicago Cutlery, Arcoroc, Swiffer and Sunbeam. Toby is actually looking for a nearby Atlanta Hotel Supply as he is in need for some Hotel Bar Supplies to complete his very cozy bar. I already relayed to him about this site from PeachSuite and I was really glad that he liked it. He knew that the products being offered there are of high quality and add to that the value of money to be spent for these items are still considered to be very generous! We tried to get in touch with them through ...

For the nth time I was thinking of getting a new blog again. A new personal blog actually. Then I thought of maybe just changing my blog address or maybe checking back all my previous post and remove everything not so personal. Then maybe I'll just let it be. But the main focus of this post right now isn't really about my blog but a redefinition of what I stand in regard to showing someone you like them, may it be tru courting or tru whatever is up on your sleeves. If you're a follower of this blog, you'd probably already know that I'm not really into courting the person that I like. As long as we both have this mutual feelings for each other, then it's settled. But if it's only a one-sided thing then forget about it. That's actually one of the few things I learned in the past. But recently, because of some certain someone who keeps making me feel special or maybe I'm just assuming it but comparing it to how I was treated before maybe I can ju...

Monday off and I'm alone at home. The housemates are all out of town and I'm left with our pets. I didn't even get to spend my weekend habit. Just stayed home though I'm planning to go to Healthway to have my eyes checked. I don't know if it's just irritated or summer sickness has already taken a step ahead and gave me these sore eyes. I hope not. *fingers cross* So the other week i got to spend my whole week at home after being diagnosed of having an acute tonsillopharyngitis. In short, tonsillitis. My doctor told me to have a 5-7 days rest for me to be able to get better. I was hesitant at first because of all the work which were needed to be done but I end up following what the doctor said. So I only stayed at home at bed. Because of that 1 whole week that happened, 2 good things occurred. 1 is i did got better and 2 is that I lost like 8lbs! LOL Then last week I got back to work with all those tasks welcoming me. I even got hundreds of email on just a...

I don't know if I'm in a hurry but I really need to go to bed soon, waking up by 5am is really my biggest challenge right now! XD New working schedule came in and it's an hour early than what we have before. Now we're on a 7AM-4PM shift. LOL I'll just be posting some bits of random thoughts that I'm having these days. I can't get to blog them separately so I'll be posting them here in a very random manner. --- I don't want to be monitored like every minute (I know this one's exag! XD) or every hour. It's not that I'm in a relationship right now but I just can't stand some texts that I'm receiving over the past days that's like checking on me if I already ate, or if I'm at the office, or anything close to that. What's worse is that when I didn't reply, the sender will think that I'm mad. Like come on, that is so not enough to make me mad. It's just that after being single for almost 5 years now, I'...

Spent my off on our usual weekend hang-out place and I even extended til today. We usually go home sunday night and spend our mondays on our own but it just happened that this monday was our friend's birthday and I just can't really leave knowing the fact that he might use it against me because it's just recently that I learned about the FarmVille thingy that he always mentions which means planting of hate and drama for other people. LOL Anyways, I'm back on a spot where someone's been eyeing on me thinking to make a move on me. If it wasn't that complicated it might have been kind of easy but being with the same group is really against my romantic beliefs. It isn't really a big deal for me if someone will try to court me or something but you shouldn't be with the same circle as I am. It'll just get difficult when time comes that we need to end it. Sorry about seeing it to end even before it gets started but this is something that was been buri...

And then it's happening again. Is there anything wrong being with me in the same bed sleeping with my close friend? I mean I kinda have some other few close friends but there's always this particular someone who makes it difficult for the both of us to share a single bed. I remember back in college, I tend to go home at bud's house more often than on my room in my apartment. Then of course I've been invading his room back then. For the early part, we still somehow shared his bed on bedtimes but there came a time when he started sleeping on the couch on the living room and somethimes on their duyan at the terrace. His girlfriend even noticed that and told him to go back to his room and sleep there even if I'm there. I don't want this to sound like there's this bromance thing is going on but c'mon, I just wanna know what's running on his mind on those times when he's just letting me sleep on his bed alone. Is he just making my sleep more c...

Went to office yesterday and took an off today. Thought of using my birthday leave but this day's isn't really mine. XD I was only supposed to take a half day off but it ended up taking the whole day. My manager accepted it anyways and even told me to enjoy the day. ^o^ So after leaving work, I went straight to Megamall, dropped by at Globe but their system is down. To kill more of the time left, I just played Technicka 2 til my fingers hurt. Haha! So how did this Birthday Leave happened? Remember Jay who, together with Minde, spent the whole day of my birthday with me last Sunday? It's his birthday today! And like what they did with me, Minde and me are now to spend this day of his birthday with him the whole day! And one of the major event for today is Les Miserables' movie screening! And they are even planning on watching it twice! So this day is still young and we're currently having a The World God Only Knows Season 2 marathon before hitting the ...

So I thought of posting this one up first before going to bed. It's almost 12 and I must really have to rush. LOL I haven't got the chance to post something here yesterday. I was too busy and occupied of all the things that happened from the moment my day went on until it all ended. I was even out of the house the whole day and haven't got the chance to celebrate my birthday with my sister who cooked my favorite Tuna Spaghetti! So our weekend stay-over did still happened after all and I welcomed my day with them: Jam, Shij, Minde, and Jay and Li who also went there after his shift. Usual things happened but it was my first time trying Jam's Canal Mix, I dunno but they call it that, an alcoholic mix made out of, well.. I think you'll never want to know but it tasted really good, better than the Hell Mix that we always have. And that's a different mix as well. LOL We were all getting drunk until they all started watching Les Miserables, the 25th Anniversa...

And here I am with them after all those rants that I posted last night. Somehow, they made it possible for us to meet. Lol So weekend stay-over is still a habit. And of course I let them know of how bad I felt last night. Hehe! Just waiting for the few minutes more before the clock hits 12 then it's a happy birthday to me! ^^ *Sent from my BlackBerry®

I just learned that such a term existed. I was only supposed to search on Google if there are people like me who are getting emotional and all as their birthday comes near.. And this was the result that I got. PBS. For an unkown reason, I got myself to stop sending GM's to my friends. We're not really texting like having a constant topic to talk about though. It's just me sending lots of random stuff to them which are more like the ignorable kind of texts. It's not like I'm putting up a wall between me and them but I just don't know. Maybe it was just my way of knowing who will reach out and knock that wall down.. But putting myself on their place.. I might have done the same thing. I know that this post isn't going anywhere and I'm starting to sound so pathetic but I think I just got bored all of a sudden. And that boredom made me realize that I was walking down that path alone again. Or maybe I got tired of sending GM's thinking that, ...

In two days, it's gonna be my day! But I haven't planned anything yet. I don't even have any idea if we'll be having our weekend stay-over like we always do. Maybe because I became silent on the GM world that's why they are not even texting about anything for this coming weekend. Or is it still too early for that? But it's already Friday, right? Anyways, this post doesn't have any attached photo with it. Still can't figure out how to make attached photos from my phone be centered on this very post and become a thumbnail photo on this blog's homepage. And plus the fact that blogger's kinda effed up... So be filled with words for now. And yeah by the way, I learned that some people just started their own 365 Project. I might try to do it as well tru my phone. Let's see if I can post my Day 1 on Sunday! ^o^ Sent from my BlackBerry®

And so I tried to change my default dynamic view here on Blogger to Sidebar. It went through but of course I need to customize it again to make the background and the fonts come back. But unaware as I am, Blogger Designer Template was messed up since September last year and up until now, this problem is not yet being solved. Customizing the Dynamic View of my blog is not really working at all. So here it is now, back to it's plain black and white combo. The idea of changing the default style was because of the post that I am sending using my phone. Images are being attached as a file and it is not showing up as an image thumbnail in my homepage. And add to that, the image inside the post isn't even centered. And I got really agitated on fixing this issue and this is what happened. LOL So there you have it. Posting this before going to bed. I'll try not to be a bit of a maarte next time on posting something up. Hehe!

And then suddenly I got an instant urge to post something up! I really wanted to share this very amazing thing that happened to me just recently so here it is. ^^ I just got 1-Up'ed at work! Technically speaking, it can be called a promotion, but it isn't really the case for now. No adjustment yet and I'm not yet sure if I still have to undergo the 90 days probationary period. But still, I'm now the team lead of the very first team that I've become a part of when I first entered this company! It was just last week when finally it was announced that I will be taking over it since my former TL is now going to be handling a category team as the newest Category Manager. And thinking that I haven't even completed my 6 months probationary period (Ending by October 20) as a new employee, well.. as a returnee actually, still I was the one chosen to lead the team. One of the newly hired even asked me if how does it feel like to be promoted, even asking me if I was ha...

Look who's back! I know that it's been the longest time since I came here and post something up. 6 months huh? LOL! So what happened? To cut the long story short, I got a job back at my previous company, US Autoparts last April and I'm turning 6 months next month! I also got myself busy rushing a bunch of stuff from Ozine's magazines -- Otakuzine Anime Magazine, Otaku Vault, Anime Asia and Anime Recommendations. And all that happened in between will just be covered on my next post. I am now really trying to get my blogging skills back on track even on a tight schedule. But of course, if you're a friend of mine on Facbook, I'm sure that you were always getting high dosage of updates from me there! And sorry for the floods of "minor" spoilers of the anime that I really follow. XD The truth is, I went back here to share what I started doing. Reading a light novel of Sword Art Online. A lot of my friends already know this, that I am not really into r...